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Sunday, February 26, 2006

I feel as if i'm losing the determination and motivation to do anything these days.

Everytime i say i want to do something, i end up not doing it. Maybe just halfway finishing it. Everything seems to hard. I'm beginning to feel really distracted. At the start of the year, i promised myself to achieve excellence in my CCA, piano and studies. And guess what?? All are in the pits. Someone smack me and wake me up. Urgh.

Maybe i'm suffering from some sort of bipolar depression. I seem so high at one point and the next, i'm just down in the doldrums. I see people around me studying to hard and all, yet i'm still wandering. I guess if i really want to succeed, i must finish all these by this week :

1) all unfinished tutorials
2) revise all lectures for maths, chem and bio
3) practice my beethoven sonata 3rd movement (stop playing the first, u're seriously not moving on)
4) START GETTING USED TO THE TIMPANI. And play it properly
5) FIND USHERS. And email the other church youth leaders.
6) Start getting the fact that honeymoon period is over.

I have to start. Now.

8:42 PM

Friday, February 24, 2006

I miss band so much. Hahaha, i went back yesterday and it was loads of fun. Except for the fact that we can't play jericho -grumbles-

I miss denise C so much la. Yesterday went to band with her and pass her the bear i got for her for her birthday(head), christmas(body) and valentine's day(legs!). And that kuku girl named it ADRIANO. -_-''''' She's hugging it to sleep every night and i think the bear feels violated. She just told me that it proposed to her. Well well, i never knew stuffed bears could talk, let alone propose. lol. But she's so wacky and fun, can't wait to go for the ACJC concert with her and my chocolate topped waffle riah! I miss them both so much...

Now pris might be gng to pioneer too. She told me vehemently that time she would not go to pioneer. I guess pioneer's really not bad. To me la. I wonder if i can ever fit into ACJC. Somehow, it might be hard having to start all over again.. bleahs.

Kkies, better end my ramblings. Take care and God bless peeps!

8:57 PM

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

I first met her when i was 6. She was this young woman who came into our house for an introduction before proceeding on with my first piano lesson the next week. Then i began having lessons with her, until 11 years later. She was this glamourous lady who zipped around in a sports car and carry branded goods. Long hair and different clothes every week. I don't remember seeing her in the same outfit my whole 11 years with her.

Now, she has lost everything.

It hit me hard. She was there, battling stomach cancer. Fighting for her life. Her family with her, going through it all. Music was her life. She had a great life. But how quickly things come and go.. life is ever so fragile. God could give you everything, and He can take everything away too. But there's one thing which He would never take, and that is His love for you.

Her love for music. It was her life. I'm going to make it mine too.

4:54 AM

Friday, February 17, 2006

I'm feeling lazy. Hahaha, so tired, just came back from the class BBQ.

The venue was... hmmm.. SCARY. If u all don't know by now, i'm a big scaredy cat. And when i was in the cab, the taxi driver kept saying how scary and dangerous this place was. AND IT WAS. Cos when i stepped out of the cab, the place was filled with BANANA TREES. And the wind was blowing cold. AND THERE WAS A BLACK CAT. If u're not scared, then it's probably abnormal. Cos it was indeed spine chilling scary.

Three big cheers to felicia who planned it all and made it possible :) Yayee, i love my SF and she rocks. Hahahahaha.

Going for ACJC's fun-o-rama tomorrow. Gonna have tons of fun :) Oh yah, and cell group too!

Take care people and BYE BYE :)

7:53 AM

Monday, February 13, 2006

This post is dedicated to God and all those who have helped me in the course of the preparation of my O levels.

I got 9 points. It was totally unexpected and i would definitely be lying if i said that it was what i expected. It was all due to God's grace and mercy, and without it, i wouldn't have come this far. I cannot say that i deserve it because as compared to others, i did not put in as much hard work and effort. I did study pretty hard for my maths and maths again, but other than that, i can't say i have DEFINITELY mugged hard enough to get that grade.

Thank you all for encouraging me along the way, praying for me and also helping me with my studies. THANK YOU :)

So now the big question: Anderson, anglo-chinese or national?

4:17 AM

Monday, February 06, 2006

It's coming. I feel it coming.

Well duh cos it's already announced NATIONWIDE.

I can't pretend it's just a rumour because it's not.

I'm losing my sanity.

9:22 PM

Friday, February 03, 2006

I'm sick. My throat is ultra sore. My head feels hot. I feel terrible.

I don't want to miss cell. Sighs.

I can't face life. Not today. And maybe next week too.

Sighs.

11:07 PM

I turned 17 today. And old i might be, it has to be one of the best days in my life.

I woke up(feeling old) but happy since it was pioneer's open house which meant that there would be only 2 hours of lessons. So went to school and met vanessa on the bus!My kuku gave me a card, a banana with a crown on top. Well, i'll leave it to ur imagination what she meant. BUT IT WAS SWEET AND CUTE :)

Constance gave me a card :) And it has a crown on it too! Hahahahah, i'm queen :) Then we went for the chinese zu bo competition. I FLUNKED THE WHOLE THING LA. But never mind, shan't complain. Cos i'm not great in chinese to begin with. It's already an achievement to come this far. Yeaps, so i met my CHOCOLATE TOPPED WAFFLE (Riah) and we went round the school together. I TOTALLY MISS HER LA. Sorry honey for leaving halfway. I still feel very bad about it :(

Oh yah, I LOVE SOYMILK. They surprised me. At first, i only thought daniel, aaron and andris were coming. When i stepped out of the hall, ALMOST ALL WERE THERE. Including Joann! I was so touched and shocked! Standing in front of me were sheena, shermaine, nicholas, jiani, daniel, andris, aaron, joann and yes. Cherie, she's such a sweetie. She was feeling unwell and all yet she went through all to celebrate my birthday and give me such a pleasant surprise! I feel so blessed. THANK YOU ALL.

Priscilla, jieying and hui hui were there too. Brought them around, soon, amisha and huda came with them WITH A CAKE. Wow, I was surprised too. I thought amisha was coming to PJC but i didn't know i had a cake. I love u guys. U all never fail to amaze with during birthdays and i would also never forget the crumble huda baked last year! Thank you all :)

Hahaha, also wanna thank my dearest senior wen ling and oneida :) And all those who wished me! Which are (it's pretty long..)
kenneth, kenneth, kenneth(HAHAHA I'M NOT JOKING), siew ling, daniel, jeremy, candy, andris, priscilla, steffi, riah, joe, jishen, candice, DADDY, eliza(happy birthday to u too!), lingfang, kevin, ruiching, denisec, jiale and andre. Hahahah thank you all. U JUST MADE MY DAY. Now, the O level results suddenly don't seem to depressing.

Of course, i wanna thank my family too! AND THE LORD. For blessing me with so much all these 17 years. Okie, i better end my thank you speech. For those whom i have missed, u know abt my short term memory but i sincerely thank you too! Love u all and cheers!

5:50 AM