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Saturday, January 28, 2006

Have u ever had this feeling of being lost to the world? I just did.

I was walking around, doing mainly so many things but it feels as if i've done nothing. And suddenly, this feeling of being detached from this world and everyone starts sinking in. Like -boom-, hey, i DON'T KNOW anybody. Who am i and what on earth am i doing here? No, it isn't identity crisis. It's the, i-don't-know-this-world kinda thing.

People say i know many people, and i don't think it's true. Thing is, it might be acquaintances with others, but i don't know many people. What they think or do, and most of the people i know i hardly talk to. Maybe the 'me' u all see isn't me. The one who's always laughing and churning out lame jokes constantly. But then again, i don't know me. Hold on, i'm in a totally confused state suddenly. Why am i doing what i'm doing? Suddenly, all these directions which i have planned out seems blurred. Or maybe, i don't want to follow it, yet i'm unsure of where i want to go to. Oh man, i'm terribly messed up.

The impending release of the O levels results are seriously scaring me. I get some sort of panic attack whenever i think about it. Sometimes, i just wanna let go and not care. But it's hard to, seriously. Many would say there's nothing i can really do right now and all, but i can't help but feel afraid. For those who already know what to expect, it'll probably be easier for them. But thing is, i don't. I don't know what to expect and i can't take any shock. This is driving me crazy.

I think i better stop with all these endless ramblings. It's not a good thing to spread insanity to others during the Chinese New Year season. Okie, so take care people and CIAOS~

6:36 AM

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Countdown to the lunar new year. Only 3 more days left. And i haven't really prepared much. As in the clothes to wear. Guess i have to do some last min shopping on friday with nicole.

Was alighting at the bus stop near my home today when this group of ah bengs from the school near my house, ( won't say which, but it starts with a r and ends with a t) started calling 'GIRL. oei girl!' I knew it was me somehow, cos there was only this sec 1 nanyang girl's girl there and when she turned back, they shouted 'NOT YOU LA'. Thinking that i dropped something, i turned back, only to be greeted by laughter and wolf whistles.

Kids these days. hahaha, wonder why i called them kids? Cos they're still in secondary school and I'VE GRADUATED :) So that means even if i'm not older than them, i'm more senior! Hahaha, weird stuff i take pride in huh?

JC life is really hectic. I feel so tired every morning and i really dread waking up. I don't know why, and even in secondary school, i never felt this way. I need alot of strength to carry on. And i need a break. So the CNY hols comes in at just the right time :)

Haha, have loads of tutorials to do. Take care peeps and God bless :)

5:25 AM

Friday, January 20, 2006

Okie, i better blog. I can't call someone a lazy pig for not blogging and me myself not blog right? Well, i've just realized that the kuku fever has spread. Not only me, but now, many more people are starting to use that word. I guess it's a pretty useful word when u can't think of any suitable adjective. And to some people who don't know what kuku is, the conversation i had with the kuku king brendon would be a classic example of kuku-ness.

I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW BIAS THE REFEREE WAS!!! says:YO WASSUP MAN (this is brendon)

`cheryl numb me. let me feel pain no more. says:HAHAHA DA SKY

I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW BIAS THE REFEREE WAS!!! says:wrong, the ceiling

cheryl numb me. let me feel pain no more. says:NO, the sky. what's above the ceiling?

I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW BIAS THE REFEREE WAS!!! says: the roof

`cheryl numb me. let me feel pain no more. says:above the roof?

I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW BIAS THE REFEREE WAS!!! says:the tiles

`cheryl numb me. let me feel pain no more. says:above them?

I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW BIAS THE REFEREE WAS!!! says:the water left over after the rain

`cheryl numb me. let me feel pain no more. says:and above that? ( see how long can u last)

I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW BIAS THE REFEREE WAS!!! says:the little water vapours

And it goes on and on and on.I think it went to the insects the the birds. It's now currently at the bigger big birds. Haha, go figure. Well, now for those who didn't know what's kuku, NOW u do. Lol. Just refer to brendon. U can never go wrong -winks-

PS. I do admit i have to small part to play as well. Lol.

6:29 AM

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

I realize i have too many fears and phobias. Bleahs, i'm a scaredy cat. But what to do, i really find them scary. I guess i'll try list then down in this post today, if there's enough space to write them all down that is. Haha.

1) I'm afraid of lizards
2) I'm afraid of scary movies
3) I'm afraid of anything which crawls and bites
4) I'm afraid of being the odd one out
5) i'm afraid of being a social outcast
6) i'm afraid of losing all the people around me
7)I'm afraid of death
8) I'm afraid of getting into trouble
9) I'm afraid of roller coasters
10) I'm afraid of pain
11) I'm afraid of being looked down by others
12) I'm afraid of being the worst
13) I'm afraid of being embarassed in public
14) I'm afraid of being eternally seperated from God

Okie, that's all i can think of at the moment. It's still quite alot already. Maybe i have many un-discovered fears. Oh well, daniel crashed my JC and had quite alot of fun huh? YAYEE. Pjc is proclaimed more fun than SP. Hahahaha, and he said it's the people that makes a difference. So in other words, he meant that I ROCKED :) Haha no la, SP was probably fun too. I have to say this, or else i get double jinxed by kevin or something.

Oh, it's getting late now. I better go. Bleahs, the new timetable would commence from tomorrow. It is really hectic. Which means i need double dosage of sleep. LOL. Take care and niteys everyone :)

6:03 AM

Monday, January 16, 2006

Hello people =)

Haha, first day of school for the week today and i may be feeling weird, but i liked bio today! Suddenly, the cells all seem so interesting and they don't seem like parts too small for me to be bothered about. Hahaha, but i guess i won't torture u all by boring u with my sudden fascination with biology.

God really provides. Just the other day the maths lecturer told us we all need to get a graphic calculator and the models all seemed quite expensive. I was contemplating buying it cos i guess i'll probably stay in PJC and i'll probably take maths again. I was thinking of getting the TI 83 plus model and guess what? Daryl has the exact same model which i wanna buy. Wow. All the money i have saved.

Oh well, we would be getting our timetables tomorrow. I guess then would the real JC life start kicking in. Hahahaha, it'll probably be pretty tiring and hectic. My new quote, reality falls like an elephant from the sky. Hah. I think my hunny knows what i'm saying. Maybe to other's i might be muttering gibberish. LOL.

Haha, i think i have to fly.Just heard some news. Okie, take great care and BYE :)

4:54 AM

Saturday, January 14, 2006

Hey people, back to blog!

Whoa, terribly sick today. Sneezing my brains out, and i've just realized something. When i'm sick, i'm realli easily irritable. Really, i think i've been snapping way too much today. Have to change i guess.

Got new spectacles today. Sighs sighs sighs. I look really kuku. Yes, i'm admitting this time i REALLY DO. So ugly na. Look so hideous and nerd. But what to do? I really can't see anything the lecturer is presenting at the lecture theatre. But wearing the glasses really makes me feel giddy. And i look terrible. Oh no, i think wearing glasses would make me develop inferiority complex. Ahhhhhhhhhh.

Went back to band today. Contemplating on whether to play for the Istana performance. Well, my playing really was terrible. Seriously. I guess i was pretty sick and couldn't really concentrate too. Oh well, i dunno what to do. Another dilemma.

I think i have to start studying already. I can't play too much for 1st 3 month thing. Or else, i'm gonna be in really big big big trouble. That said, i better go. Take care people and God bless :)

5:17 AM

Thursday, January 12, 2006

The rain still hasn't stopped. Hahaha, and it's so cold in school. Especially in the lecture halls.

We got posted to our different classes today. Good thing i'm not alone, at least edwin is in the same class. He's really good in bio, yayee, so i have a new bio teacher. It was so cool la, during bio lecture, he actually brought in a recorder and recorded the whole lecture. Bio is really hard, and alot to study and memorise. Concepts can be complicating, or maybe it's just because i'm not good enough for it. But one thing for sure, i'll never see cell in the same way again. Wow. God's creation can be really marvellous. He takes care of the tiny details and it's amazing to see how things work so systematically.

Maths lecture today was really fun. We were studying functions today, though it was mainly a recap of secondary school work. Hahaha, so the lecturer was showing us how to use a graphic calculator. And one question required him to find out the minimum point, and when he keyed in enter for the answer. The word : GUESS flashed on the calculator and everyone in the lecture hall started laughing. Which was really funny.Cos this is the first time i came across a calculator to ask us to guess the answer. Hahahaha.

Planned for the OG outing for next saturday. Ooo. I can't wait for that. And for cell too. Which reminds me, i better start on the purpose driven life.

Okie, i better go. Take care and God bless! CIAOS

1:43 AM

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

It's a public holiday today and holidays do really remind me of the december hols. Where i could stone and bum around without a care. So those days are over. And i think it'll be a long long time before they come again.

Orientation officially ended yesterday. Haha, i miss OG 4. But never mind, we'll have some OG outing soon. Yayee. I can't wait. Campfire was really fun yesterday, whoa, went totally high. But i guess we are supposed to be high, especially on the last night of orientation.

O level results would be out on 15th feb or that's what i heard. It's gonna be scary, i don't know. I mean, the papers all seemed okie, but everytime something seems okie, it always turns out not. And i can't bear to face that kinda situation again. Really.

The weather seems so nice and cool. And really great to sleep in. Yet i have to go to school. Aww bummer. With the weather so cold, i can even sleep without the fan on. Imagine how much electricity bills we could save if it were like this everyday. But then again, i don't like the rain much. Thunder and lightning aren't my thing. And it's troublesome to carry an umbrella every where i go.

Haha, i'm gonna stop my endless ramblings and not gonna bore u all further. So take care and God bless! Adieu :)

1:29 AM

Friday, January 06, 2006

Wow, i feel really tired. Never knew that orientation could be that tiring. I never felt that tired during unity cca leader camps but today, i was like a zombie, stoning my way through everything.

Woke up at 4 to go to the airport to send granduncle and aunt off. Hahaha, i was smart enough to bring patricia(my pig) and my blanket with me to the car and i slept comfortably the whole way through. Then came back at 7 to sleep all the way till 12, only to be woken up by nicole to watch the school vcd.

I miss 47 so much. Hahahaha, watching the vcd really brings back alot of fond memories and how we have mugged so much for the O levels. AND BAND TOO. Sorry i couldn't come back yesterday, my orientation ended too late. I wish i could too.

College curriculum is really scary. Everytime there's some lecture or talk, the teachers never fail to scare us with the heavy curriculum and ginormous amount of brainwork we need. Guess i'll have to work like really really hard to get into the course i want to in uni. That's gonna be tiring.

Hahaha, i love my OG. And the gua gua gua people. Hahahaha, for those who don't know, there's the ah gua, bak gua, tau gua, mu gua, xi gua and ku gua. Ahhhh.. this is so kuku man. But oh well, kuku can be fun toos :)

I'm so pro, stoning in front of the computer can still write so much -grins-

9:36 PM

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Hey people, it's been a REALLY LONG time since i've blogged. Hahaha, not really but still yeaps, i haven't been blogging for awhile.

Have been busy in PJC with the orientation camps and all. Come back home really tired everyday but it has been alot of fun and i made many new friends!

Hahaha, would blog more about the orientation when it's over. Right now, i think i need rest and sleep. ALOT of it.

So till the next post, take care and God bless. Adieu :)

6:47 AM