Saturday, July 30, 2005
Sometimes, we all get lost. Living life aimlessly, wondering what's going on. When we don't seem to know what's going on, we'll be in despair. Yes. And that happened to me.
Well.. i've realized that i am not in control. God is. And when i try to be( yeah i know.. a smart alec)things just don't go right. And of course, we all find someone to blame without actually wanting to find out the cause of it and amend it. That's running away. And yeah. I'm guilty of that too.
I wonder what made me feel so depressed lately. I can blame it on stress. I can also blame it on my stupidity. I can blame it on everything. But i choose not to now. So what if i do? Would things get done? No.. i don't think so. Wallowing is self pity and being deluded would not allow me to get all the grades i want. And wanting to do it all by myself isn't going to either.
I need to focus. And pray. Somehow, no matter how bad life may seem.. it ain't THAT bad.
Wow. I feel enlightened.
10:10 PM