this's just dandy

2008-01-15T20:32:00.000-08:00

Sometimes i really think
no one can say all that stuff
and expect everything to be alright.

my biggest regret
was to listen.
my guilt has turned into anger.
hell hath no fury a woman scorned.

i have such mixed emotions.
you all ruined my mood.
my life. my plans.

enough of this crap i say.
my friend never hurts me
your insecurities will.
things will never ever be the same again
you all know it won't

yeah when i'm older.
i think i learn
how to be a hypocrite
to be superficial.
to say things and not mean it.
just what u all want to hear.
want me to do.
all in the name of experience.
the ways of the world.

just what u all want me to do?
pretend everything's alright?
yah i will.
enough of that talk. don't even have to say it.
u all know how it'll turn out.
enough of this tirade.

enough of this judging. enough of this attacks.
enough of these insecurities. enough of these guilts.
enough of making my life worse than it already is.
enough of regrets.

enough of you.

2007-12-09T05:21:00.000-08:00

It's not that i'm super sad or anything.
i just need this outlet to blab all i want to.
it's not just pure ranting, cos i hope it does make some sense.
work isn't what i thought it would be.
somehow, plans made after my exams turned different
but i went through it.

however, i did some reflections.

It's not that i hate the corporate world or i'm giving up.
i KNOW i would have to enter it somehow.

when i am older.

When i'm older, i'll go through what i go through now
I would work in this type of environment
I know i have to, because that's what adults do.
and i really won't have a choice because i have responsibilities to fulfil.
because i won't be 18 anymore.

but before that happens, i want to be 18.
I want to do stuff which i know i would never have a chance to in future.
I want to scoop icecream.
yes i know that may sound immature and stupid
but i just want to do it.
because i would not have a chance to anymore.
even if i want to in future.

I know i'll have to work in a big corporation in future.
But give me time
let me do what i want to now without any regrets.
Let me be 18
Let me have fun working.
Let me have my own plans.

when i am older, i will have a fair share of what i'm doing now.
but for now, just let be do simple jobs like scooping ice cream.

because when i'm older, i know it's impossible.

2007-11-23T06:58:00.000-08:00

So the exams has ended and i kissed formal schooling goodbye.
Finally no stress and worries on how difficult the exam would be but why am i not as happy as i thought i would be?

I had my holidays planned with gazillion things in mind but somehow, things don't always work out the way I want to. urgh.

COS I'M GNG TO WORK. YES. W-O-R-K.

The feeling of being so inadequate with zero work experience. I don't know why i just not looking forward towards it.
I also kind of hate the time when i wanna spend money and think of it in terms of WORKING HOURS. i really dont want that. I just wanna be young and be a student, doing all the crazy things we all always do and not having to feel embarrassed.
And i really scared if my working collegues would not like me! What if i'm like ostracised? ahhhhhh.
i wish i were still studying.

somehow being grownup is overrated.

2007-10-26T07:55:00.000-07:00

Like michelle, i'm only blogging because i'm on a break!
i NEED a break.
I really dislike all the mugging i have to do now.
And when i say dislike, i really dislike it!
It feels as if i'm losing myself.
But then again, it does feel empowering sometimes.
In the midst of the abhorrence trapped in me
there's a tinge of hope and happiness whenever i understand something, solve something, am able to do something

HAH but maybe it's just a spurt of delusion i'm experiencing.

Who cares, it'll all be over soon.
All i need to do is to press on for the time being and i can go back to being ME

2007-09-11T05:00:00.000-07:00

School.
is an irony itself.
Oh well. I guess i have to spend time with people i don't like.
Quality time just like what michelle says.
i hope it doesn't last.
and time would fly
as fast as
i fly when i see a lizard.

2007-09-05T07:49:00.000-07:00

Since button asked me to write something on this seriously dead blog, i shall do just that. HEY U BUTTON, CAN'T COME WITH US ON HUDA'S BIRTHDAY PARTY and then called me at night to look out for the moon. I was so scared okay! U know how scary my rooftop can be at night, i was seriously freaking out!
And huda, i'm not posting my pictures here now! Cos i have crazy stalkers! HAHAHAHA. Oh and have to seriously update u guys on the club med thing!

Speaking of club med, pris miaw huda and i ( AMISHA U'RE INVITED TOO) wanna take a trip there. And sissy, intends to go there and have a wild time. I get this feeling, like what miaw said, we're going there to look out for pris and stop her if she gets too wild! Hahahahahaha. Amisha u have to be there to help us okay!

I really miss my secondary school friends so so so so much. HAHAHAHA. Yeapps, the crazy times we spent and how now huda cannot recognise priscilla. Oh well, i hope to spend more time with u guys soon after the A's!

and i'm not a bimbo.

2007-08-30T03:04:00.000-07:00

CELEBRATED TEACHER'S DAY TODAY.
and the concert was like
b-o-r-i-n-g.
Last yr's was tons better.

But our teachers are so nice!
maybe that's because they told us to
REST during the hols (:

This is seriously boring.
yayee gng out again tmr!

2007-07-31T08:35:00.000-07:00

So he said
" i love school "
And she said
" i love school not."
He replied
" but school's so fun!"
And she said
" that's because ur prelims aren't in 2 weeks time."

and then he said
" AREN'T PRELIMS SUPPOSED TO BE FUN?"

What a weird world we live in. Seriously.
I can say with a firm conviction that

i am so not enjoying a single bit of what i'm doing.

2007-07-26T04:22:00.000-07:00

I'm suffering
From Potter withdrawal.
And many other things as well.

LONGBOTTOM LEOW! hahahahahahahaha

2007-07-17T01:07:00.000-07:00

It seems like eons since i last posted.

Okay fine. A fortnight isn't eons.

But i'm not fine. Not very really.
Work pressures. SCHOOLwork pressures to be exact.
Prelims are seriously murderous!
When i try to pry open my ten years series, all i see on the cover is

" I BITE "

And i know when i'm stressed and all, i'll end up doing like many many things wrong. And i'll not focus on God. So God, please give me this strength to continue. Really. And don't let my faith in you waver.

okay. i shall do bible study everynight from now on. At least now there'll be one kind of studying i'll look forward to!

PRAISE THE LORD (:

2007-07-04T05:24:00.000-07:00

TRALALALA. It's gng to be my new laughter.
Seriously. Argh school is driving me nuts.
I really don't mind lessons homework and all.
IT'S THE A LEVELS.
What if, what if.
it's all just full of what ifs.

Maybe i'll just apply to harvard.
and if they accept. i'll frame the application.
and go into a local university.

Footnote: No i'm not saying that i'm super smart enough to enter harvard.
It's meant to be a joke. Cos there's no way i'm ever going to make it in there. ever.

2007-07-01T03:07:00.000-07:00

Was REALLY excited to go to the ritz yesterday.
Okay fine not really the ritz, but more of ZARA.
I knew there was a sale.
but i didn't know everything was gng to be on sale.
AND I CAN'T BUY THE SHIRT DRESS I WANTED COS IT'S ON SALE.
AND NONE LEFT.
Unless u count the unwearable sizes like XL AND L.

Okay point is.
NICE STUFF SHOULDN'T BE ON SALE.
It should't be made cheap and available
then everyone would buy it.
AND THE SHOP COULD HAVE EARNED LIKE 30 DOLLARS EXTRA FROM ME
ARGH.
Nice stuff should be exclusive.

TALKING ABOUT IT STILL MAKES ME MAD.
But i spent time with the cousins, mom and dad.

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY. (if i'm not thinking about THAT DRESS)

2007-06-06T20:36:00.000-07:00

I hate naughty kids.

Really. They're annoying.

AND I DON'T REMEMBER BEING THIS BAD WHEN I WAS YOUNG.

Argh. Next time, if i ever have to face them again

I shall lock them up in cages.

MUAHAHAHAHAHA.

2007-05-24T06:48:00.000-07:00

GREAT SINGAPORE SALE.

Whahahahhaha time to shop (:

and it's hols now! i mean soon.

I know i have to study. AND I WILL.

gng to plan my timetable soon.

CROSS MY FINGERS HEART AND EVERYTHING.

that I'LL FOLLOW it.

2007-05-16T05:07:00.000-07:00

TEST WEEK.

Thank goodness it's over already.

bio is really really really driving me nuts.

but thank goodness again this has given me a SIGN

never to do science ever again in my life.

PHANTOM WAS GOOD.

hahahahaha. And RUSSELL WAS SUPER CUTE.

Okay just a few photos for sat and sun

btw. i queued for doughnuts.

i will NEVER EVER do it again.

and i'm michelle's favourite nut! HAHAHAHAH.

2007-05-06T05:18:00.000-07:00

Some people are such a turn-off.

I mean REALLY.

They love pouting and taking MULTIPLE shots of themselves alone

in different angles.

I mean seriously?! How different do u expect it to look?

Oh and they never ever change their captions.

It always revolves around CutEzZz and lAmEzZ and tIrEzZZ

At first it was the girls.

Now BOYS are doing it too.

urgh. this is really annoying.

and u know what's worse?

THEY ASK FOR COMMENTS ON THEIR PHOTOS!

I really can't think of anything truthful AND nice to say.

oh and HAHAHA.

NICKY IS A RETRO DISCO SKATER IN HOT PANTS! WHAHAHAHAHAHA

I say, he's even hotter than paris hilton (:

There! nicky in action (:

Only that's not him.

2007-04-27T06:25:00.000-07:00

Life is good
Cos i have found my new love

KIM HEUNG SOO!!!!!!!!!!

Okay i'm like getting super addicted to him now.
Better snap out of it.

*snap* *snap*

Okay the dreaded homework are all piling up
like this huge mountain in my room
and my notes are like all in different parts of the house

HAHAHAHA i think i will have fun treasure-hunting
cos i know i'm going to need those notes alot.

for the homework i don't really wanna do. rahhs.

2007-04-17T05:23:00.000-07:00

I LOVE BEN AND JERRY'S

BEN AND JERRY'S IS LOVE LOVE LOVE

FREE CONE DAY!

It was the ultimate and super fun!

Went with Janelle, Micbayy and Hong Ngiap first

And it was pure fun

with the clowns and cows

and FRIENDLY SCOOPERS

I think the ice cream would kinda hate me.

I ate four. FOUR.

and it would look like this

Oh well, i guess they have no reason not to.

BUT FOUR ICECREAM FILLED WITH FAT.

but who cares, ice cream is love

And so are cows (:

See the cow looked so happy

I think it loves us

Wait, except hong ngiap.

He tried exposing it. LOL

I wish it were free cone day everyday.

2007-04-12T06:18:00.000-07:00

I seriously can't be bothered with your sniding remarks.
With referrence to my attitude, behavoir and worse still, my school.
Others don't really see a problem with it.
In fact, they don't at all.
So i don't see why you should.

I think it's getting irritating
Me not saying anything doesn't mean i accept the remarks
I just can't be bothered to rebutt.
Besides, u always use the school as the last lamest possible argument
Change ur tactics mister.
Cos it's not working.

Stop trying to be nice when u need something
And a total creep when u don't.
I've seen through u
And i had enough.

On a lighter note, tutoring the kids was fun!
Hahahahaha. that shaolin monk
HE'S SO CUTE LA. lucky carol (:

2007-04-03T05:24:00.000-07:00

These days, the male species are just making me mad.
Say REAL MAD.
All it took was just two freaking encounters today.

Encounter 1:
On the train to school today
saw this old hunch-backed lady with heavy plastic bags
it was OBVIOUS she had trouble standing in the crowded train
and the whole row was seats were occupied by MALES.
One particular one, whom i stared at, JUST REFUSED TO GIVE UP HIS SEAT.
I know he saw me staring at him and it was darn obvious
That person just refused to shift his butt.
And the poor old lady had to stand.

Encounter 2:
A friend told me that some GUY came up to her sister and called her a

NEIGHBOURHOOD KID.

What's a neighbourhood kid huh?
It's not as if his school is THAT prestigious.
And besides, she does not live in a neighbourhood.
Think you're high up there?
Think again.
Doesn't your school have THAT MUCH resources?
oh right, u're so smart huh?
With that much resources and brains (right...)

WHAT IS SHE DOING IN THE SAME SCHOOL AS YOU ARE?

U, who called her a neighbourhood kid
SHOULD BE THOROUGHLY ASHAMED OF YOURSELF.
Cos calling her a neighbourhood kid would mean that
YOU SHOULD BE DOING MUCH BETTER THAN HER.
and you are NOT

so shut up and don't think u're elite.
because u should just re-examine yourself.

Wow, all these rants make me feel so much better. bahhs. I still hate boys.

2007-03-31T06:30:00.000-07:00

Meet bobby.
He's tall
He's smart
He's hardworking.
And he's a genius.
He does well in life (:

He's my alter-ego.

2007-03-13T20:08:00.000-07:00

After a week of reflecting, thinking, pondering,praying.
I guess i got it all sorted out.
This new strength to let me carry on
No matter how hard it is

I will.

Thank you Lord.
And for sending me an angel (:

2007-03-12T08:37:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 5am yesterday.
Some run and it was super funny
XY michelle and all just woke up and wore what they slept in.

Two major highlights
CENTRAL MALL!!!!!
I love it there cos it's so inaccessible!
But yet i have a straight bus there from my house
So it's convenient for me and empty so it's nice to shop in (:
new shoes new shoes.

Oh and michelle and i got lost together
And i always wonder why it's the both of us
YES. MEN ARE BAD AT DIRECTIONS.
Three different men gave us the wrong directions
AND IT'S NOT US WHO CAN'T FOLLOW OKAY!
hahahaha so it felt like 1 hour in the wilderness.
Okay fine chinatown. But we walked from clarke quay to outram.
LOL. and crossed tons of bridges.
BUT WE BEAT IT ALL AND FOUND THE RIGHT BUS STOP!

Well that's all for now. CIAOS (:

2007-03-06T04:05:00.000-08:00

My blog seems so dead.
Okay school's getting pretty tough.
So is everyone else.
It's just these few weeks.
no wait it's till the end of this year.

Sleep deprivation is really detrimental to your mental sanity.

ooo i'm gng crazy.

2007-02-19T17:56:00.000-08:00

Three of us (:

Russell and Jade

He's that cute

Shuhuey and snowball (:

Micbayy and I

Xizhi michelle (:

SNOWBALL

Felicia (:

2007-02-16T07:12:00.000-08:00

Chinese New Year celebration at school today.
Well the first part was pretty.. dry.
But i liked the last part, ALOT. Esp the malay performance.
SO SO SO SO SO SO SO COOL.

Oh ya. I needed to go to the toilet
And this teacher refused to let me go.
And she asked me why was i going to the toilet
Like DUH. To pee la.
Speaking about her, she's really weird.
Kiat was telling me something really disgusting
and i was so shocked i yelped.
And she scolded me for yelping.

IN THE CANTEEN.
Like i said, she's weird.
Maybe one day the school rule would be
No yelping in the canteen. Some teachers are dead allergic to it.

2007-02-06T04:27:00.000-08:00

I have a new goal.
I have to find something Intellectual
I can't be having too many smart people around me
I'll feel terrible.

Amisha suggested intellectual games club
But i can only play UNO.
Rahhs, finding something intellectual to do
Is so mind boggling.

2007-02-03T06:29:00.000-08:00

I'm eighteen
I really wanna thank God for blessing me for the past 18 years.

So i'm eighteen.
I'll have more responsibilities.
I'll have more burdens.
I'll be an adult soon.

I just can't wait. really.

AND THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR THIS HAPPY DAY!

2007-01-26T04:18:00.000-08:00

School home study.
School home study.

this is sad.

tell u what. I'm tired of all these.
It's been EONS since i hit any shops
everytime i make plans to

everything just has to
MESS UP

U know what?
I shall just make myself happy.

Plans won't fail again.
Cos i'll go to POPULAR BOOKSTORE

At least i can convince myself i went shopping.
This is too upsetting to even talk about.

I shall just find a hole to hide for the rest of my life.

2007-01-25T04:35:00.000-08:00

I'm sick. I'm angry. I'm tired.
SOMEBODY makes me angry.
He compares me to the YIAN-LOSER
now i'm really really angry.
HAH. Let's see how long he lasts in music.
Talk so much about the book
during my time, we didn't even need textbooks.

On the other hand, i think the new econs teacher is plain.
NEUROTIC.
She isn't mean or anything. She's just scary.
Say, really really scary.
She's like a time bomb.
Who can either burst into fits of anger or niceties.
Guess i'll have to live with it.

Whoever said j2 was fun and easy anyway?

2007-01-17T04:18:00.000-08:00

School is to tiring.
Mug mug mug and all that homework.
Totally driving me nuts.
But i did promise to mug and study.
Oh well.

TzeKiat's teacher is HILARIOUS
She calls herself ' HER MAJESTY'
According to him, it's the royal biatch.
I rather call it a royal pain.
She seriously exalts herself to that high a position.
If only she looked like a queen.

I almost forgot about the GP essay.
And the econs test result back tmr.

RAHHS. hear me roar.

2007-01-09T04:16:00.000-08:00

I promise to change.
To study and MUG.
And do my tutorials.

man. I want my life back.

2007-01-08T06:35:00.000-08:00

Run run run away. Jump up into the sky and maybe i'll fly. Bounce among the clouds and soak up the sunshine. Then look down and gaze upon the world below. It seems so far away, somehow.

I can't believe i did what i did today. I just don't want to lose myself. Lose myself in reality.

2006-12-12T23:00:00.000-08:00

Life is so sad. Everyday i'm stuck at home doing chemistry. How fun. But HEY! At least i can answer questions now (:

Going to the night safari with the girls and amisha's little bro later (:

Soymilk retreat on sat, hope i can go..

And i really miss shopping. Oh well, shall catch up on that when i go to Hong Kong.

Whahahaa okay i think that's all i can come up with for now. Tata!

2006-12-09T06:42:00.000-08:00

So cute can! Hahaha and isn't it like so ah-dor-a-ble to have a lampshade on his head! Hahahaa and his singing along in the car too.

Looking at him makes me wish i were a kid again.

2006-12-07T19:31:00.000-08:00

Everything is terrible today.

i) I can't log into intranet. And i really wanted to do that econs thing.

ii) I have a stuffy nose. I feel like sneezing but i can't sneeze.

iii) Mum is screaming and shouting.

iv) The kids are fighting.

solutions? I can't think of any feasible ones right now. So this is all i can come up with.

i) darn it. i guess i'll have to do what amisha says.

ii) Nose job? maybe acupuncture to clear the sinuses

iii) make my house vacuum. Then all would be peaceful and quiet. Sound can't travel.

iv) fight with them. I realize they love hitting one another and so maybe i shall buy canes for them to hit one another. reverse psychology. hah. then they won't. Dad used to do this to kenneth and i when we were young. I thought that it was dumb. Now i know it works.

Hah but hey we weren't that bad kids. At least we loved our ah ma. Good thing daryl isn't here, or else if he hears what THAT KID said to and about ah ma, he'll probably explode.

Nicholas is in south africa. I wanna go too. He smsed me last night saying he was on his way to south africa. I didn't believe. That lucky ducky. Get to go to the exotic countries. I wanna go to madagascar.

2006-12-03T22:16:00.000-08:00

Felicia graciously made me to this quiz. Okay it's like totally lame but what else do u expect from her? HAAHAAHAA. Here goes...

1. Attached or single: SINGLE (:

2. Have a pet? : NO WAY. I DON'T LIKE ANIMALS.

3. Love your parents? : Yes

4. Like thunderstorms? : HAHA. I almost got a heart attack from a thunderstorm at night and i went to school pale faced the next day. What do u think?

5. Ghosts/Horror Movies? : No. Man i hate this quiz.

6. Shopping or pedicure? : SHOPPING!

7. Black or white tee? : black

8. have a handphone? : no. DUH YES.

9. Mp3/mp4/ipod?: ipod mini in a horrible blue.

10. Have a teevee in ur room? : no. i wish i had one though. with cable teevee!

11. Have a computer that belong to you?: brother and i share 2 laptops. but none belongs to us.

12. Have a sibling? : yes. i think my blog says enough abt him.

13. Have msn? : yes.

14. advice friends? : haha sometimes. they accept it or they laugh. hahahha.

15. have your own room? : yeah

16. have ur own disc? : this quiz is so dumb.

17. go out with friends before? : no. mum wants me to come home everyday after school. DUH YES.

18. Like to take neoprints? : if i'm not feeling hideous that day

19. Love to design stuff? : in my mind

20. Love your friends? : YES. DUH YES.

21. Love ur stead? : hah. i don't have one now. even if i did, i wouldn't love that person.

22. Have you done a pedicure before? : Man this is getting dumber.

23. Wash your face once a day?: no, more than that

24. Love to eat chocolate?: dark bittersweet ones

25. Been to other countries before? : yes

26. Have any disease or anything? : Not that i know of.

27. Love your family? : YES.

28. loves ur?: WHAT?

29. Like to watch incredible tales?: no. i'm scare myself to death.

30. Like to watch high school musical? : YES.

who to do this quiz: i shall be nice and not force anyone. this quiz is seriously dumb. hahaha

2006-11-29T08:06:00.001-08:00

Hahaha i shall blog in bold now for clearer reading.

I was wondering if my diction was THAT bad. I mean either reception is bad, my diction is bad or the salesgirl's english is well, not so good.

Hahaha i was on my way home today with mum and nicole when mum told me to call the video shop to ask them how many episodes are there for the korean drama spring waltz altogether and if they have the taiwanese dubbing.

Okay let me digress a little about the dubbing. I never ever liked the chinese dubbing from china. Because they have this way of speaking which makes the person sound like a strangled chinese opera singer. And why is dubbing important. Because the person's voice affects the character and someone he would be less charismatic and handsome if he had a terrible voice.

Okay so back to the sales girl. I called her and this was how the convo went

Me: erm may i know how many episodes are there for the korean drama spring waltz?
Her: Ahh what? Movie??
Me: No. korean drama spring waltz.
Her: No such movie la. Dunno what u saying.
Me: KOREAN DRAMA SPRING WALTZ. IT IS A DRAMA SERIAL. SPRING WALTZ.
Her: Can read out the chinese name for me?
Me: ???!!!!!! okay * mutters something inaudible and incomprehensible in chinese*
Her: Orh! Okay, i know. U want GREEN WALL RIGHT?
Me: NONONO. SPRING WALTZ. SPPPRRRRIIINNNNG WALLLTZZZ. *emphasising on the zzzz.
Her: Yah la. That one. *then says the chinese name of the show*

Then u know what happened? She said to her friend in the background that i wanted *spring waltz in chinese* and continued telling her friend i can't speak english properly and she doesn't understand what i'm talking about.

Of course i was angry. I said spring waltz and u said green wall. And besides, i never ever heard of a name green wall for korean drama la. Still criticize my english. HMMMPPHHHH.

Oh btw i cut my hair. OOO it feels so light now. Teeheehee. CIAOS.

2006-11-28T00:20:00.000-08:00

This is so funny. No it's maddening actually.

MY BROTHER TOOK MY TOOTHBRUSH AND HAVE ACTUALLY BEEN USING IT FOR QUITE SOME TIME. AND THAT DELUSIONAL GUY THINKS IT'S HIS. WHEN HIS IS IN MUMMY'S TOILET.

i feel i need to get my whole mouth sterilized. He has cold sore and teeth as yellow as rubber duckies. Arrrgh.

Good thing he's away at chalet now.

I'm still traumatised about the toothbrush.

2006-11-23T05:00:00.000-08:00

I am angry. Like seriously pissed. Yet i'm not allowed to say anything.

On a lighter note, i'm gng back to band tmr again!

yayee i miss my timpani.

That doesn't mean i'm happy. I'm still pretty pissed.

2006-11-20T08:52:00.000-08:00

I am angry with someone. Like really angry.

FINE. Side ur friend over ur sister. Don't bother talking to me in future. Side your friend for all i care. Please, don't act innocent and all nice cos it's making me sick. I don't want to tag on ur lousy tagboard anyway. And PLEASE delete my link from your blog, cos i want NTH to do with u.

After all, u always are nice to ur friends. Think they understand u or whatever. And slam ur family on ur blog. don't think i didn't read it. ur oh-so-supportive-go-soul-sistas bond is making me sick. Yeah okay, so ur friends are the nice and innocent ones and me ur sister the evil one. Whatever.

Oh yah, btw i was REALLY objective about what i said. Is it really my fault if that person takes it personally and shoots back at me? I wasn't even saying bad stuff about her la. And i was saying stuff abt CHARACTERS in a show. Who is she to talk to me like that? Oh and YES. Act coy and innocent and oh-i-feel-so-terrible after that so as to make me the BAD ONE. NICE PLAN. But too bad i'm not falling for it. Go fall for it and side her, i don't care.

So do whatever u want to do. I don't care. Cos u are so not worth my time. Go have fun with them if u want, and please don't tell me i am detached from the family or crap like that cos i don't buy it. It already shows in ur actions.

2006-11-20T04:24:00.000-08:00

Teeheehee. This might be a little late but well they're the photos which i took on friday when deniseC fel and i went to vivo (:

2006-11-18T08:18:00.000-08:00

Hahahaha went out with felicia the ahnehneh and denise the nehneh yesterday. Watched step up and had alot of fun la. Basically we just crapped around and said lots of stupid things. Whahaha, i only rmb to quotes of the day now.

Denise: Cheryl i hate u
Me: Oh i love u too.

and

Felicia: wow, great song.

Yes, and kept taking pictures of random people la. Don't be surprised if u see ur daddy's picture in denise's cam. And oh, THE WAVING PART. So lame i tell u. Only denise managed to pull it off, cos when felicia and i waved, nobody seemed to look. Hahahahaha maybe cos when denise waved she looked like a siao char bo.

And the crank calls were super funny can? Like the 98.7 one. This victim was quite terrible, cos denise had to explain to her what 98.7 fm and 'on air' meant. Hahahahah felicia and i couldn't stop laughing la, and oh! JIAYI'S MODELLING STINT.

Well, i miss u both la. Never mind, we'll go ride that super fast LRT which requires seatbelts soon okay? and SENTOSA too!

Whhahahahhahaa, yayee i blogged.

2006-11-14T03:35:00.000-08:00

Yes felicia and denise, i have finally changed my layout.

Hahahahaha and my tagboard too. So erm u guys can spam all those nonsensical stuff. LOL.

Somehow feels a little weird not seeing johnny depp on the screen whenever i open my blog.

2006-11-10T06:00:00.000-08:00

No felicia, i'm not dead nor MIA. I was just.. lazy.

Hahahaha yah i know there's something terribly wrong with my blog, other than the not updating, my tagboard is NON-FUNCTIONAL.

Whew. OP's over, WHICH MEANS PW'S OVER. Hurray.

Oh yes, ur prezzie is still with me. Sorry if it's super belated. But u'll get it and love it. And make sure u wear it. Hahaha.

I know this is a short post but i really have not much to say here. Will do something abt the tagboard soon! Ciaos.

2006-10-11T06:40:00.000-07:00

Sleep. I wanna sleep.

And go thailand too. I'll miss andris and ronnie.

And eliminate PW completely. if only.

But i guess i have to grit my teeth and face it. Bravely (:

2006-10-05T05:26:00.000-07:00

Teeheehee. Exams are ending tomorrow.

it's quite late actually. But never mind, i'm still happy.

I was online yesterday and i saw joey pooey online. Thinking he was having a break then, i asked him when does his exams end. He said it ended already.

Rahhs. It's so not fair. Amisha ended her exams today too. I want mine to end soon too.

Cheryl is gng to play. And shop shop shop. Wheeeeeeee~

2006-09-27T23:54:00.000-07:00

So the promos starts tomorrow. But i still have to face it don't i???
I have been like mugging for econs the whole day so this WHOLE post is gng to non-academic (:

maybe i should just list down stuff about me which u guys don't know.

1. I have gone mountain/jungle hiking before.
2. The only answer u get when u try talking or asking me something when i'm asleep is ' YES'.
try asking if i love u.
3. I think economics is fun. I actually like studying for it.
4. i used to hate taking pictures.
5. deep down i wished i were tall-ER.
6. i read chinese folk tales and myths.
7. i can only use two fingers to type. And i actually play the piano.
8. i never liked playing monopoly.

yes, i know they are all random. But i bet u guys didn't know that right. Maybe amisha, well cos she had to tolerate my whining up and down the slopey jungle. And all i ever got to see what a big nosed monkey.

2006-09-17T01:47:00.000-07:00

Haha, it's been a long time since i've posted anything on this blog and sometimes i just feel like shutting it down. Haha but then again i won't, cos i hardly see my friends nowadays and i guess this is one of the main ways they can listen to my RANTS. Not really listen, but u do get what i mean.

JC open house season is coming soon! YAYEE. Maybe i shall go to EVERY open house and see what is it like. Teeheehee. This is so exciting. Yah, how exciting is it gng around to other schools open houses. i really sound like a no-liver now. But then again, I GET TO SEE MY FRIENDS (: Rahraharah. I miss constance. Hahahaha.

The dratted promos are coming soon. I feel like a slacker. Yeah, i hear of people studying their guts out, okay not literally but then again. U KNOW WHAT I MEAN. Hahahaha okay the best example of a class A mugger would be... DENISE CHONG XIN YI. Yah, that girl mug mug mug non stop. I don't remember working REMOTELY hard for O levels. Hahahah she'll probably end up in raffles or hwa chong at the rate she mugs. GO DENISE!!!!

It's the mugging season now. And i wanna wish ALL THE BEST to those taking their A levels and O levels. AND SAD SAD SAD PEOPLE LIKE ME TAKING PROMOS. Okay i'm happy. Wonder why do i say i'm sad. Lalalalalalalalalalala.

Time to mug again. Till the next post, SEE YA (:

PS. RUSSELL'S HERE. WHEEEEEEEE.

2006-09-07T20:25:00.000-07:00

Holidays are ENDING. Which reminds me, i haven't got down to SERIOUS studying. Unless u count the chem books, i highlighted them and understood them all right, remembering is a different story.

I really don't want another PTC. Really, no matter how funny my form teacher might be, he is definitely not the person u want ur parents to meet.

Unless u are a supersmart genius who has ZERO faults, or close to zero at least (:

And i'm not. Hahahahaha. U can stay up all night to count my faults and i bet u won't even get to half. But then again, i think u can stay up for TWO nights and count my niceties, and u won't even get to half (:

Felicia and denise are mugging like crazy. Ahahahahaha SWEET MEMORIES of my O levels. But hey! At least maths and chem seemed fun then, so why don't they now? And we could still write stories for english, and it's BORING stuff now.

hahahaha yeah, i don't like economics, environmental basically watever stuff we have to do for GP. Cos they hurt my brain. HAHA i know if amisha's reading this she's probably groaning in horror. Every morning she'll be trying to share interesting bits of info she read and i'll be like ' Hey hons, i know it's interestng. But it hurts my brain and i don't wanna think so much in the morning"

Which is true, i rather not think when i don't have to. But the WEEKEND is here. Which means CELL. Hahahahaha this is gonna be so fun.

Oh yes, and hong ngiap said chocolates are sexy. And when he was saying that i was looking at the mnm mascot on my table. And mnms are colourful and round. And they look fat too.
Thus the equation is:
FAT = SEXY
Which sums up my post for today.

2006-09-04T03:34:00.000-07:00

I'm happy today and i don't know why too. But hahaha anyway, since i'm so happy, lemme list down the things i like.

I like chocolate. Hahaha nice dark ones. Sweet milky ones don't work. Really, they make me fat and thirsty.
And oh, I LIKE JUDE LAW, HUGH JACKMAN AND JOHNNY DEPP.
I love listening to bar jokes. They totally crack me up. AHAHAHA.
And shiny glittery stuff too!
And the smell of rain. Please, no thunderstorms. In thunderstorms, i'm like hooper. I think amisha knows what i mean.
MATHEMATICS. Just for a time being.
CUTE AND FAT BABIES.
BEN AND JERRY'S ICECREAM.
Air con room with a nice big bed.
KOREAN DRAMAS. Hahahahaha yes yes yes.

OH YES. And something real cool happened today. I was waiting at the cab stand cos i was REALLY late for lessons in school. Thanks to the stupid online test thing. yes, and then this lady went to the front of the road and STOLE MY CAB. She didn't even get in line. Hah, and she still had the guts to give me a ' TOO BAD SO SAD LOOK'. I was so mad until, when the cab tried to get to another lane, IT HIT A PASSING LORRY. And then there was this commotion and TAADAA, SHE'S STUCK COS SHE'S SOMEONE INVOLVED IN THE ACCIDENT. Being really nice, i decided to give her a really sympathetic look when my cab drove past.

Moral: Don't mess with cheryl. Or steal her cabs. Cos u wont know if u'll bang a lorry (:

2006-09-01T08:56:00.000-07:00

Rahhs. For the fifth time my mum is asking me if the doors downstairs are locked. I think she's REALLY paranoid since it's the fifth time i'm answering YES.

Okay fine that wasn't what i intended to write at the start of this post but oh well.

Keen and Jade are here to stay for the week and oh boy would it mean tons of fun, chasing and noise. OH WAIT. Keen's funny questions too. I was just telling him stories and explaining to him on the miracles of Jesus and what they meant. So i gave examples of a crippled man walking, making the blind man see again. Then he said, " What about teeth?"

You see, he's only 7 so he's going thru this dropping of milk teeth stage. Guess he really loves his teeth cos he believes that Jesus would come tonight and perform a miracle by putting them back again.

Maybe i should start writing a book on " Funny things Keen says and his funny little thoughts" I bet andris would be like the first one to buy the book. yah, maybe while he's staying over i should pen these questions down. HAHA!

yayee my promos ends on tbe 6th of october. Which means i get to watch vienna boys' choir! YAYEE AND TRIPLE HURRAY (:

Not to hurray cos i still have to SAVE THE MOOLAH and well, study. RAHHS.

2006-08-26T08:45:00.000-07:00

I just realized that i haven't been posting for a long time already. Hahaha yeah i'm like REAL LAZY but sometimes i feel that my events of the day aren't really blog-worthy enough.

Right, so today was quite a happy day as i had CELL (: Sometimes when u feel ur spiritual life is going down down down and then u need some form of a LIFT. Yes and that's when cell comes it. Cell today was fun, we were all making fun of each other. Andris the airhead, and me the.. well yeah.. FALLING DOWN THE STAIRS. ( i'm really sorry for laughing at u denise, but luckily mine wasn't at esplanade HAHA)

We learnt of running away from our mistakes and lies and this really made me think. I realized for all my past life i have been constantly running away from all the mistakes i make, lying my way through so many things and then using lies to cover them up again. whenever i think of it, i truly shudder.

But then again i don't have much courage to own it up now as i'm really afraid of the people looking at me differently. But i know truly for sure now that no matter what i do, how ashamed i am and how terrible i become, my Father up there doesn't love me one bit less.

Hahah we had the bbq next and gotta talk to my dearest friends(: I love ronnie, andris, evan, jiani and my BESTIE AARON. Hahahaha yes i love EVERYONE, not only them. U get away from the real world when u're with them because politics and all wouldn't exist.

hahaha i think this post is getting like long. And i'm really tired. In fact, i'm zonking out in front of this computer. ahaha nitey people and CIAOS (:

2006-08-19T06:19:00.000-07:00

Ahahaha i'm back to blog (:

I love smiley faces. Somehow it reminds us to keep on smiling and be positive. I have to be positive, i feel bugged by the rest of the world these few days. Grit my teeth and hold on.

ahhh right! My brother's band is playing challenge the skies and heavens above. Reminds me of the times in unity. ahhhhh memories.

Hahaha yesterday went for this acapella concert at geylang church of christ. Brought keen and jade and keen was sitting with me. He was real cute and ANDRIS LIKES HIM. Hahaha. Okay and when they were singing ' SHINE JESUS SHINE'. Oh no, he started asking questions. One thing about him, i don't mind him asking questions. Thing is, i have no answer to his questions.

-acapella group singing SHINE JESUS SHINE-

Keen: Peiwen jie-jie why can Jesus shine?
Me: erm. Because he can? I dunno.
Keen: Is it because he has the shiny shiny circle thing on his head? (he was referring to a halo.)
Me: Well.. erm maybe. Something like that.
Keen: My friend said he died. Then he was alive. WHY?
Me: Because He's special. He's the son of God
Keen: Then if i die i can be alive again? IS IT?
Me: WELL. Not exactly but something like tat?
Keen: Then i can go to heaven. like power ranger *some funny sound effect* up there?
Me: OKAY I REALLY DUNNO. why not u wait till the thing is over then ask that jie jie there? -points to andris_

Lucky for her, he forgotten all about it.

2006-08-13T04:47:00.000-07:00

Weeeeee back to blog.

Yes, i was sick for the past few days and i had a dream. YES another dream.

Went for cell yesterday and hahaha, sheena was so funny! Sheena gives really funny replies these few days. Just few days ago, i had this online convo with her and this is how it goes:

Me: HEY SHEENA :) Do u have cao cao?
Sheena: the song?
Me: no, the person.
Sheena: HAHAHAHAHA. OH.

Yes, and yesterday, ahahahaha, we wanted to go watch fireworks. Andris said that the best view was from the merlion. Then sheena went, 'Okay! Let's go kallang then!'. Ahahahah. SHEENA GOH!!! MERLION IN KALLANG. Ahahahahaha.

But i love her all the same. Shermaine too :)

Had this sore eye today. I felt like an albino rabbit. ooo hoppity hop. AND I BOUGHT NATHAN HARTONO'S CD. Ahahahahaha, it was really funny at the music store that day.

Me: urm. Do u have nathan hartono's cd? Jazz singer. Local.
Salesgirl : erm, who? Nathan?
Me: yah. Nathan. LOCAL.
Salesgirl: erm, nathan from hi-5?
Me: *SMACKS FOREHEAD8

HAHAHAHA nathan from hi 5! I think pris huda and miaw hui would laugh like crazy. Nathan from hi-5. RIGHT.

2006-08-09T06:11:00.000-07:00

Yes, i'm back to blog after a rather long time of not blogging. It's not that i don't wanna blog or something, i just can't find anything to talk about.

OOO and it's NATIONAL DAY TODAY!

I'm not exactly in a festive mood now because... well because i don't know why. It's probably the first time in years not actually watching the parade. Yeaps, i don't exactly enjoy the dance parts and all but i ALWAYS love the march in. Yeaps, and i didn't even watch it this year.

Maybe i'm just in a really really bad mood. Please don't ask me why. Someone's just irritating me. Like real badly.

Anyway, at least there's something interesting to do. Like reading PERSUASION. Yes, i'm actually reading the actual novel and it takes me a REALLY REALLY long time to get the whole story figured out. And watching PRINCESS HOURS too. Ahahaha i think the only reason why mummy allows me to watch it is because she watches it too!

I'm actually addicted to CAO CAO. I can't believe this. Ahahaha. I think the best part is actually not understanding what the whole song is actually about and just singing along because i printed out the hanyu pinyin lyrics :)

I feel so pro in chinese!

2006-08-04T08:14:00.000-07:00

Superhumans. Sometimes it might be really really cool to be one.

I wish i could fly like superman. Then i won't have to take planes and feel the wind in my hair.
I wish i could orb like paige from charmed. Then i would never ever be late.
I wish i could travel back in time and to the future, then i get great sneak peeks!
I wish i had superbrains so that i would never need to study yet do so well

Yes, i wish i wish. These things never come true anyway. No matter how much i wish, i can never orb like paige, or fly like superman. But we all still wish anyway, somehow, it feels cool when i imagine myself orbing here and there. FREE LIFTS TO ANYONE!

Not in the best of moods lately. I think most people know why. SIGHS SIGHS SIGHS.

Why do things really have to be so bad???

2006-07-27T03:36:00.000-07:00

Just typing this short post since i'm like kinda rushing to do that EOM.

Tests are really flooding back.. and oh, the feeling of tiredness and numbness in my legs whenever i come home.

AND CHERESA IS TALKING ALOT. AS IN, ALOT.

Not that i'm complaining of course, BUT SOMETIMES I DO.

Especially when she's w****ning away. Haha but i told her to keep her eyes peeled, someone near might just be the one!

Ahahahaa, ooooo parent teacher conference on sat. Haha i really wonder what my parents would say when they see my teachers. I HOPE NO NEGATIVE COMMENTS THOUGH.

Ooo okay like i said this is a short post, any longer and it'll be LONG POST.

AND PEOPLE. VIENNA BOYS CHOIR WOULD BE COMING TO TOWN. PAEDOPHILES AND MUSIC LOVERS, WATCH OUT FOR IT!

2006-07-23T04:43:00.000-07:00

Life is just returning back to normal. And why do i actually say it's normal? cos *SNAP* honeymoon period's over. It's time to study. Tests have come flooding back. Even the hoover dam can't stop this flood.

But i'm still having fun :)

Who says u can't have fun in a midst of dreaded tests. MAKE IT FUN :) Yeaps, i believe there is definitely an art to making studying fun. Something which only nerds can master. BUT NO MATTER. For i am going to master it too. And guess what? I am going to let it soar to greater heights. I AM GNG TO ENJOY STUDYING WITHOUT BEING A NERD :)

Ahhhhh positive attitude. Something which is really really lacking in me for the past few days. Hahaha, i want to be TRULY TRULY positive. Not being positive air headedly going.. TODAY IS GOING TO BE A HAPPY DAY! ahhhh SUNSHINE :)

HAHAHAHA. Yeaps, so i'm gng to practice and master the art of making studying fun. And happy. And exciting.

Ooo, my heart's thumping already. -rubs hands in glee-

I AM GOING TO STUDY!

2006-07-22T06:07:00.000-07:00

I shall blog.

Okay i blogged :)

2006-07-18T05:57:00.000-07:00

Hello people :)

Haha AS U CAN ALL SEE BY NOW, i've changed my blog layout. HAHAHA. Yeaps, like amisha said, FINALLY :)

I'm quite happy today, because i passed my terms! My greatest fear is failure and i really don't wanna fail and i'm really glad i didn't. I shall promise to work harder and do my best, cos two years would pass really fast and i REALLY WANNA DO SOMETHING WHICH I WANNA DO.

Okay right. So i STILL have yet not decided what to do with my life. I only know what i DO NOT want to do with my life. I have thought of three jobs which i know i'll never be

1) GHOSTBUSTER
2) Engineer
3) PE TEACHER

So, as a confused teenager, i guess i'll have to work really hard so as to not be left with choices which i don't wanna choose. So, being the typical kiasu Singaporean, i'll have to study hard. I really do admire those who already know what they want in life. sighs.

I don't mind being a tai-tai, or just a rich housewife. I'm not a naturally hardworking or proactive person, i just do it cos i have to do it or maybe everybody's doing it.

Have to find an inspiration and aspiration. Now all i think of is living confortable and happily. No proper goal.

AND I'VE GOT A NEW EYE CANDY :) And i love johnny depp. oooo he's so hot.

2006-07-10T07:15:00.000-07:00

Wowee, back from the hiatus.

Okay not much of a hiatus, i erm well crashed my previous computer and that's why i have not been blogging. Or being online as often as i used to be.

The drastic exams are over, and the results can be really really disheartening. I mean we get like twenty percentage passes in class, or even worse, 3 in a whole class for econs. Sometimes i wonder if the paper is uber hard or maybe it's the standard of the students. I cannot really question the standard of the students cos i see people getting like almost full marks for tests consistently and i can't see how or why they can actually fail an exam. So if the paper is seriously too hard, then why is the school allowing it to happen?

Most people would say, motivation. I have no idea, but i beg to differ. Maybe it's because people work differently. But i'll say that this method really would not work for me. U see, i feel that the better i do, the more confidence i have and with more confidence comes the motivation to study harder and attempt the harder questions faced. This is called progression. Not being thrown into a sea of ridiculously hard questions and expect oneself to swim with ease. No float is given and mind u, this sea isn't the dead sea. Students struggle and what happens? They leave so many questions blank, wondering if they have really studied when they actually did do their best. They get disheartened and as time passes by, they won't even bother to try cos the feeling of " there's no point trying, i can't do it" sinks in.

THAT'S WHY THINGS SHOULD GET PROGRESSIVELY HARDER. Not from the start. Scaring students like that isn't going to work. Maybe some people just get this perverse sadistic pleasure of failing the whole cohort. But is that what is going to push students harder? Really, these students not only have to face their parents at home, but their peers in other schools. What would they think? I cannot imagine.

That aside, Italy won the world cup. And i supported France. Cos i love that country. Haha. And my friends and i were discussing that day having Singapore host the world cup would be a REALLY BAD IDEA. Haha imagine at the stadium, say Singapore vs England. I bet not only the English supporters would be there cheering their guts out for their country, and what about us? Cheering for the english too! What a sight. Haha really Singapore in the world cup by 2010? Cool. Anyway my friend shared with me that in the group stages, singapore was ranked third in their group. I was like COOL! Well, it was until i found out that there were FOUR countries in a group. So singapore was basically 3/4. Well, improvement anyway, so next world cup, they can get in. I shall be anticipating that.

Oh and i love johnny depp. He's so hot. Can't wait till pirates of the caribbean opens.

2006-06-16T09:10:00.000-07:00

Hey people back to blog!

It was so fun yesterday, a crazy day with crazy percussionists and honey riah! Haha, met up with denise to buy flowers, wanted to go to causeway to get them but found out that the ones which i wanna buy are also sold at lot one! Had some time to kill so we went to BUGIS. Called felicia(KUKU TIMPANIST) and then walked in bugis for a while before meeting her at topshop! Haha everyone had to bear my THREE JOKES OF THE DAY. Anyway, yeaps, so we ate and since denise didn't want anything for dinner, felicia and i asked for a SMALL BOWL and put all our veggies into that bowl for her. Haha it was such a funny sight. And then the REVELATION of the day: Arthur is Victoria's brother, who is felicia's best friend. HAHAHA. okay. Anyway, so we were already running late and we walked the WRONG way to the train station. When we finally got there, we hopped onto the train and then i realized something was wrong when the train went out into the open. Cos we were supposed to take to city hall, which is like underground, and guess what, we ended up at KALLANG. Okay so 2 bad things happening already, then we RAN IN HEELS to the taxi stand cos we were late. Yikes, and the uncle told us to wait cos he wanted to go to the toilet. So we were arguing if he were pooping or peeing and if he were doing the former, we would hop onto another cab. Anyway, he was out like real soon so off we were to VCH!

Met riah and then we went to watch the concert. It was so cool and yeaps, felicia was laughing at the guy with the clapper and denise and her gave him the name RAJU. Oh and his name turns out to be DANIAL. Yes i went to find out. LOL. And he's malay, so u guessed wrongly! Haha yeaps anyway there was this small boy too and they named him PIKACHU. Then they started talking abt him evolving to RAICHU but i was pretty amused with the guy playing the sleighbells so i couldn't really concentrate on their convo. And HAHAHA, when people started shouting names, felicia started shouting Arthur. I was like, u're so bad, he's ur best friend's bro u know? LOL. And during the percussion ensemble, they were like straining their eyes to look for him when VOILA! He came out conducting. Felicia was a little nutty that day, and put her with denise, u get like TWO RAVING NUTS. Nyahahahaha. Oh and i met shuhuey and passed her the flower and saw SINYEE, SAMANTHA and XUEYUAN :) Haha and HANNAH BANANA too. SO funny, we saw jerrold and asked him to sing! YAYEE. Okay.

So the concert ended and riah took the train and we decided to cab home. And we walked like a long long time and still, NO CAB. And then this mercedes cab zoomed past and we tried flagging it, denise was like, he said wait, so why not wait for him? And felicia was like, no la, he means he's busy. So after walking like for SO long, denise still kept turning back, waiting for the taxi to come back. Hahaha. And felicia suggest we use our legs to flag a cab -_- And when we finally got onto a cab, they wanted to do CRANK CALLS. So first on the list was colin! Okay and then he recognised felicia's voice and then aloysius was next, but he was bathing or something so can't. Then shawn didn't pick up the phone too but haha, if he did, this would how the convo would be like:
Denise: CONGRATULATIONS. U're on 98.7 FM and if u just answer this simple question, u would win tickets to the WORLD CUP FINALS!
Shawn: okay, so what's the question?
Denise: WHY DID THE CHICKEN CROSS THE ROAD?

Okay, something like this. So we finally dropped felicia off and then went back to unity where they took like ULTRA LONG to open the gate. haha, but we still managed to get into the toilet IN TIME. Haha and then went back home to watch world cup. I LIKE JOE COLE. He's so cool la. And peter crouch looks weird, nono wrong, on the soccer field. Haha. Best part of the match, yorke's injury. HAHAHA.

Okie enough of these endless ramblings, better go now. CIAOS.

Okay this is a REALLY long post.

2006-06-11T21:21:00.000-07:00

Haha i'm back! Had great fun at both camps.

PP youth camp: Haha was really zonked out when i arrived at the church building so just basically stoned the whole way until we reached seremban. Haha, believe it or not, i really slept ALL the way throughout the bus ride. Haha then went to my room and just put our stuff there before gng down for games and all. I didn't remember much, only remember being like real tired and all and was almost falling asleep in the meeting room. Woke up to my FUNKY ringtone, like how andrea described it. LOL. And then went down for some christian execises. It was like so bai chi at first but it was quite fun la, esp when u're doing it at like six in the morning. Had lessons and didn't join them for games cos i HAD TO STUDY. Anyway, group skit was fun. Nyahaha. Last day of camp we focused alot on discussion and the sharing was good, and then skit. Haha bbq at night was fun too. Andrea and i got, high on bananas. LOL. And the skit was quite funny, watching my bro as a toilet cleaner. HAHAHA. Left for AGGIES camp soon after with irvin in uncle cheong fatt's car.

AGGIES CAMP: haha got there and saw jiani and veron! Haha saw yan ming first and the first thing he told we was, WE ARE GONNA PRANK DANIEL. Was supposed to room with jiani and veron but ended up with evan cos she had a spare place. So yeaps, was with evan in the end :) So funny, we always go up to the room to laze around. Ahhh we're lazy people. Haha also had fun talking to jiani and veron cos they're so lovable! Oh oh and i saw joanne too! That darling just ran to be and hugged me real tight, with my luggage in my hand too!Haha miss her loads. And andris. Haha, she's so kuku. haha i miss allison and kaylie. They're both so nice. And the group skit too. Hahaha so i now have five boyfriends. BLEAHS. Now here are the top 5 funny parts in camps.

1) Aaron swimming (he looked like he's drowning)
2) Kenneth dancing (HAHA THIS ONE IS THE CHAMPION)
3) people thinking that the voice on the cd played in the hotel dining room is irvin's singing
4) dexter and everything about him
5) aaron's acting in his skit.(cool glasses)

Oh well. I want to see kenneth dance. And aaron swimming. Again.

2006-06-04T07:35:00.000-07:00

I know it's useless now. But i still wanna apologise.

Sorry.

It's a crazy day today. I have a bad headache right now. I just want to curl up and die.

2006-05-29T06:36:00.000-07:00

So the holidays are here. And oh how much is there to do.

I want to relax, i want to shop, i want to catch up on sleep, i need to catch up on teevee.

I need to study, and study and study and study. Not school stuff alone, but God's word too.

So much to do, so little time. I know, it may seem like a WHOLE month. But when u dissect the month up, u realize the time u have is so little!

Am saving up for my shopping spree. YAYEE. Can't wait.

2006-05-16T02:36:00.000-07:00

I've been staying home for the past, 4 days?? Not even stepping out once to breathe the fresh air or hear the birds sing. Yah, it definitely has to be weird with that coming from me since i was never a nature person. Yeaps, so basically doing nothing much other than mugging, sleeping, watching korean dramas and drooling over the male lead:)

I need some sunshine. But i feel all too comfortable here. I don't feel like going back to face reality. Like erm, a maths test? NO WAY. I wanna stay here. And watch and rewatch my teevee. Oh no, i must be turning into some obasan. I can't. Better start having a life away from the television.

Yesterday's episode of desperate housewives has to be one of the best i've ever watched. It was really interesting to see how betty threatened bree into telling the solises about their mother's death. Yeah, i think danielle is seriously dumb. That guy ISN'T EVEN HOT. Hah. She's pretty desperate if u ask me, she used to holler after john and now she's betraying her own mum just for a creepy un-hot guy. Like seriously, she wants her happiness and then becomes comforted with pizza?! That has to be really immature.

My favourite part was still the part where gabby and the nun were fighting in church. i was laughing my head off. It was totally hilarious. Of course, i seriously don't condone such acts. But the nun's a truly scheming one. What a complicated world this is...

I wanna go shopping. Yeah. I need to go shopping.

2006-05-10T03:36:00.000-07:00

Haha, i think i'm blogging more often these days. But whether or not it's a good thing, i don't know.

Anyway, first things first: HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICBAYY =)))

Okie, i seriously CAN'T act. Yes, i can't. I mean today's surprise, was erm, kinda unconvincing. Maybe she was really smart.

Anyway, just two more tests to go for this week and freedom. Can't wait till friday, when i can really go out to have fun! These tests are really killing me, especially econs. I feel like i'm some pig from a farm waiting to be slaughtered. How can we churn out an essay when we have NEVER written one? Let's see how we're gonna perform that miraculous feat tomorrow. HAHA.

I can't believe how nicholas is gng about saying he fits qualities 1,4,6 and 7. Argh. How ironic, considering how i stated on quality 7 that the person has to be UN-CHAUVINIST. See what i mean? He just proved my point :)

Suddenly, i really really feel like playing the timpani. Sighs.

Oh and check out this video. It's guaranteed to burst u into peals of laughter :) CREDITS TO FELICIA (stupid timpanist. HAHA.) nah, she isn't stupid. SHe's just kuku.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=plSfKHZZwZ4&eurl=

Okay, i'm done blogging. Take care peeps and God bless! Ciaos~

2006-05-06T06:55:00.000-07:00

Riah tagged me! So i'll have to do this blog confession thing!

U have been tagged. U are to come out with 7 qualities of your perfect lover. specify the gender, then list down and tag another seven bloggers on their page if u've been tagged. if u have been tagged, u need not do this again.

Gender: MALE OF COURSE :)

1. Loves God
2. Love me more than i love him
3. Loves my family and they love him
4. CUTE AND HOT :)
5. Strong. Emotionally and physically. (I cry easily, both of can't be crying tgt. I need comforting u knoww)
6. Has to have some musical knowledge. (c'mon, i love music. i need someone who does too)
7. UN-CHAUVINIST AND GENTLEMANLY. GOOD HYGIENE HABITS. CARRIES HIMSELF WELL :)

people who have to do it
1. CANDY
2. MIC BAYY
3. Evan!
4. Kevin
5. AMISHA!!! NYAHAHAHAHAHA
6. Sheena and Shermaine (they make one!)
7. Guanzhong! Hahaha he just signed in when i was thinking of who to type.
haha okie that's for now. Have to go tag on their blogs. CIAOS :)

2006-04-29T07:56:00.000-07:00

Yes. I'm disappointed and upset. But there's nothing i can do.

I didn't want to know abt it this way.

Yah, maybe i'm narrow-minded. Maybe i just can't relate to people. Maybe i'm too caught up in my own righteous beliefs.

but that's the way i am.

2006-04-23T03:35:00.000-07:00

Back to update :)

It was the SYF for display bands yesterday and i went with my parents to support my bro. Wowee, met so many people there and practically most banders went. Haha.

Everyone did a good job and i was screaming and cheering for my bro. Guess i was pretty high. Shall not comment on any bands though, don't want people whom i don't know to start attacking my beautiful blog. Hahaha. But if u do want comments, DO COME TO ME. Hahaha, right.

it was daddy's birthday yesterday. Went to eat and celebrate. Yayee. I love russell. He was uber cute yesterday.

I zoomed in with my binoculars to see my brother. AND HE MARCHED WRONGLY. lol. it isn't hard to spot him. Cos most people in the band are.. slim :)

I think the post shall end here. Can't wait till nicholas passes me the vcd of the marching band video he took! Haha.

2006-04-14T23:33:00.000-07:00

I'm seriously getting shorter with all the work piling on top of me. 4 tests next week?? THAT'S BAD. How am i gonna survive?? Wait, i shouldn't even be blogging right here right now cos i still have that GP essay and chinese stuff to do. But yeah, since i'm like already here, shall continue blogging till the end of the post.

I love school yet i hate it. Ahhh, the typical love-hate relationship.But tests and all are difficult, and it'll probably be worse it one is placed in a class with uber-smart peeps (EG. CHEM.) What if it seems as if the maths lecturer is speaking in Greek? Or maybe that GP teacher wh goes screaming at us not to write in pencil.. (oh how she always appears so.. angsty?) Oh of course i'll save the BEST for the last, MY ADORABLE ECONS TUTOR :) She was so freakkyy the during the last tutorial. This was how it went:

Tutor: Okay for DRQ 1b, Cheryl, go put ur answer on the board.
Me: But mam, this is the THIRD time u have called me to answer the question. Couldn't someone else have a chance?
Tutor: I like u and i like ur name. *sings* Cheryl cheryl cheryl
Me: -SHUDDERS-

Oh goodness. And i kinda refer to her has the tutor cos, i still don't know her name. Then again, we don't really have to know names of out tutors unless it's our erm.. form teacher. Speaking about him, he just LEFT the class like that during PCCG, I guess he knew our class was already really really morally upright and thus spending time marking papers then leaving the class halfway would definitely be more productive, leaving us to mingle and talk abt mtv programmes? LOL.

Okie, i better stop blogging. endless ramblings and rantings can go on forever. Have to start being productive by at least BRUSHING OFF THE DUST of my GP essay question paper. Take care and God bless :)

2006-04-11T03:20:00.000-07:00

Back to blog after a REALLY REALLY long time.

So band concert was over. It was real fun but nerve-wrecking at the same time. I totally messed up the last part of merry widow! Oh wells, sighs. But this concert reminded me alot of the times in unity. Amisha and i still talk about unity alot, it's the fond memories we have there. All the fun, laughter and tears. When we were all there, all of us couldn't wait to get out. But now, i miss those days so much. JC is totally different, there are nice people but somehow there aren't that many friends. I'm so glad to have amisha, ruth and azmi there. At least a small part of unity remains. HAH.

I LOVE WEST SIDE STORY COS TONY IS SO HOT. -fans myself- He can really really sing! Maria too, i think her voice is just perfect. It's high without being too pitchy and ear piercing. I really admire people who can sing, it's like a sort of talent. Ahhh.. maria maria. Oh yah, there was this 'bed scene' in the show and when it was gng on, HANNAH LEANED FORWARD. I was like HANNAH, U WANNA GET A CLOSER LOOK OR SOMETHING?? Turns out she wanted to look at the violinist. HAHA.

Sorry riah for giving u such a shock when i thought i lost those cards. Will pass it to them real soon. THANKS WEN LING FOR THE FLOWERS:) AND MY STUPID TIMPANIST FELICIA TOO. hahaha. Thanks for the erm.. MEHMEH?? Hahahahaha

Okie, tons of GP work to do. Take care and God bless :)

2006-03-30T04:10:00.000-08:00

Boos. Back to update :)

So ultra uber tired. Everytime i come back from school, i end up dozing on the couch. I feel as if there's always THIS much to do and yet so little time to complete it. I'm really trying my very best to cope with stuff and i feel that everything is so heavy and i can't bear this whole burden alone. Tutorials, project work, CAs, piano, CCA. U name it, i've got it. Now i really understand.

Oh wells, i shall be positive and take things in my stride. However, i have a special request. Anyone know of any maths or chem tutors or tuition centres which i can attend?? Good ones preferably, i know i'll flunk my upcoming CAs, but i don't wanna flunk the future ones, esp my promos.

So yeah, sorry for the lack of updates and i'll try to update whenever i can. CIAOS :)

2006-03-21T06:29:00.000-08:00

Long time since i've blogged.

Quick recap for the march hols:
Sunday: left for PJ

Monday: Watched this christian movie called LEAP OF FAITH and it was good. Had bbq and met the PJ youths. All nice people. ESPECIALLY CALVIN :) Hahahaha. Saw dad and mum too.

Tuesday: Shopping and MET THE THAIS. I miss then so so so so much.

Wednesday: bonded with the youths and left for singapore. Joanne came back with us :)

Thursday: Went out with joanne then met candice, sheena, shermaine, evan and andris. Took neos and ate at TCC :)

Friday: went out with SOYMILK and watched a piano recital. And the performer turned out to be Shona's cousin. LOL.

Saturday: THAIS ARE IN SINGAPORE :) Had a combined youth meeting at PP and it was fun.

Sunday: worshipped at bedok and bonded with thais. CHA-YEN :)

Monday: back to school at acjc. Met my new class and they're nice :) Love them. Turned out wen ling's cousin's my classmate. Haha. Met the thais at harbourfront for awhile then went home.

TODAY: School till 4.10 then rushed to tiong bahru to meet SOYMILK and thais. Had farewell for candice and said my goodbyes to the thais. Felt quite troubled today. I miss my mummy and daddy. I will come visit you guys in december!

Hahaha, ultra condensed version of my holidays. Take care and see ya peeps :)

2006-03-11T19:30:00.000-08:00

I'm off to malaysia soon!

I miss soymilk :)

I'll try to forget everything. Yeaps.

OFF TO MALAYSIA I GO!!!

2006-03-09T04:44:00.000-08:00

Went to ACJC band concert yesterday. And it was good. The band had the tone and it's quality was great. And the songs chosen, WERE SO HARD!! Especially 1812 overture. Tchaikovsky's pieces are really hard. I tried playing the piano arrangement and i was lost. I wonder how am i gonna keep up if i join the band there. Sighs.

Met my honeypie RIAH and i was, late. Felt quite bad and that sweetie gave me a box of cookies! I love her so much cos she never fails to make me happy =) So we walked around esplanade and shared icecream while waiting for guanzhong and amos. He told me to meet him at 7 somemore, in the end, BOTH WERE LATE. Hahahaha. So after that grand entrance, went up to the concert hall and guess what? Refat was just beside us.

During the whole concert, i was anticipating 1812 overture the whole time. And it was the last song played! Was quite tired by then and almost dozing off but THE TIMPANI PLAYERS AT THE CONCERT WERE AWESOME. Except for the ACS barker one.

Okie, i think i better stop blogging. Am sneezing while blogging actually. Amisha, huda and miaw hui just came today. Hahaha, had great fun laughing and making jokes with them. Till next post, SEEYA :)

2006-03-03T19:09:00.000-08:00

Update update =)

I was so nervous yesteday. So worried i would not be able to get into ACJC and end up in AJC. It's not that i hate AJC or something, but the environment there DEFINITELY doesn't suit me. It's totally scary in there. The people all MUG the whole time. I know A levels would always be our main priority. But the thing is, we can't make it OUR LIFE. Life in AJC seems to unbalanced.

Okie i'm digressing.

Yah so thankfully i got into the college i wanted :) But i kinda miss pioneer, the environment there and CONSTANCE. Hahaha, that sweet girl gave me a card like note. She drew some comic strip on how we met and all. It was so cute! I'm gonna miss that comfortable environment. Able to be who i am without having any fears of not being accepted.

After school, went with priscilla to ACJC to appeal in. WOW. Seeing the whole stack of appeals made me kinda afraid. There were SO many of them! The environment there would be really competitive. And i kinda hate losing. Not that i want to win either. I just want to be somewhat in the middle. This way, i won't need to stand out. Haha, back to my day's adventure. So went to buona vista to wait for candy and then went out shopping with her!

We went to IKEA to have lunch AND I WANNA GO BACK THERE AGAIN. It was so fun la. Hahahaha. Suddenly halfway during lunch, candy was like ' Is that jamie yeo?' I looked but couldn't see clearly because she was looking down at her handphone. Then in front of her was this tattooed guy, and i kinda remembered that glenn ong has tattoos. So i thought, maybe it's her. But then again, didn't she endorse COURTS? So what was she doing in IKEA? Hahahaha, and it turned out, IT WAS HER. Hahaha

Went bag- hunting next. Was pretty fun. One scary encounter. Candy and i were walking halfway when i turned back to see if she was there. Then i saw this ah beng looking at us and giving his friend some weird look. Kinda dismissed that cos didn't even like bang into them or something. Continued walking until i stopped suddenly to see if candy was there again. And guess what? When we stopped, they stopped too. Got quite suspicious already. But didn't tell candy, only told her at the escalator and SHE FREAKED OUT. Hahaha, but it was this major public place. No one could do anything to us.

Off to band after that and we played phantom and MERRY WIDOW. It was so funny la. The timpani part, i couldn't stop laughing. Yah, so i better control and NOT laugh the next time i play. Went back with DeniseC and yea, it pretty much summed up my whole day. Except for that melodramatic visit that happened at night. *ahem*

Haha, this has to be one of the longest post i have ever blogged. Oh wells, take care people and God bless!

OFF TO ACJC I GO =)

2006-02-26T20:42:00.000-08:00

I feel as if i'm losing the determination and motivation to do anything these days.

Everytime i say i want to do something, i end up not doing it. Maybe just halfway finishing it. Everything seems to hard. I'm beginning to feel really distracted. At the start of the year, i promised myself to achieve excellence in my CCA, piano and studies. And guess what?? All are in the pits. Someone smack me and wake me up. Urgh.

Maybe i'm suffering from some sort of bipolar depression. I seem so high at one point and the next, i'm just down in the doldrums. I see people around me studying to hard and all, yet i'm still wandering. I guess if i really want to succeed, i must finish all these by this week :

1) all unfinished tutorials
2) revise all lectures for maths, chem and bio
3) practice my beethoven sonata 3rd movement (stop playing the first, u're seriously not moving on)
4) START GETTING USED TO THE TIMPANI. And play it properly
5) FIND USHERS. And email the other church youth leaders.
6) Start getting the fact that honeymoon period is over.

I have to start. Now.

2006-02-24T20:57:00.000-08:00

I miss band so much. Hahaha, i went back yesterday and it was loads of fun. Except for the fact that we can't play jericho -grumbles-

I miss denise C so much la. Yesterday went to band with her and pass her the bear i got for her for her birthday(head), christmas(body) and valentine's day(legs!). And that kuku girl named it ADRIANO. -_-''''' She's hugging it to sleep every night and i think the bear feels violated. She just told me that it proposed to her. Well well, i never knew stuffed bears could talk, let alone propose. lol. But she's so wacky and fun, can't wait to go for the ACJC concert with her and my chocolate topped waffle riah! I miss them both so much...

Now pris might be gng to pioneer too. She told me vehemently that time she would not go to pioneer. I guess pioneer's really not bad. To me la. I wonder if i can ever fit into ACJC. Somehow, it might be hard having to start all over again.. bleahs.

Kkies, better end my ramblings. Take care and God bless peeps!

2006-02-22T04:54:00.000-08:00

I first met her when i was 6. She was this young woman who came into our house for an introduction before proceeding on with my first piano lesson the next week. Then i began having lessons with her, until 11 years later. She was this glamourous lady who zipped around in a sports car and carry branded goods. Long hair and different clothes every week. I don't remember seeing her in the same outfit my whole 11 years with her.

Now, she has lost everything.

It hit me hard. She was there, battling stomach cancer. Fighting for her life. Her family with her, going through it all. Music was her life. She had a great life. But how quickly things come and go.. life is ever so fragile. God could give you everything, and He can take everything away too. But there's one thing which He would never take, and that is His love for you.

Her love for music. It was her life. I'm going to make it mine too.

2006-02-17T07:53:00.000-08:00

I'm feeling lazy. Hahaha, so tired, just came back from the class BBQ.

The venue was... hmmm.. SCARY. If u all don't know by now, i'm a big scaredy cat. And when i was in the cab, the taxi driver kept saying how scary and dangerous this place was. AND IT WAS. Cos when i stepped out of the cab, the place was filled with BANANA TREES. And the wind was blowing cold. AND THERE WAS A BLACK CAT. If u're not scared, then it's probably abnormal. Cos it was indeed spine chilling scary.

Three big cheers to felicia who planned it all and made it possible :) Yayee, i love my SF and she rocks. Hahahahaha.

Going for ACJC's fun-o-rama tomorrow. Gonna have tons of fun :) Oh yah, and cell group too!

Take care people and BYE BYE :)

2006-02-13T04:17:00.000-08:00

This post is dedicated to God and all those who have helped me in the course of the preparation of my O levels.

I got 9 points. It was totally unexpected and i would definitely be lying if i said that it was what i expected. It was all due to God's grace and mercy, and without it, i wouldn't have come this far. I cannot say that i deserve it because as compared to others, i did not put in as much hard work and effort. I did study pretty hard for my maths and maths again, but other than that, i can't say i have DEFINITELY mugged hard enough to get that grade.

Thank you all for encouraging me along the way, praying for me and also helping me with my studies. THANK YOU :)

So now the big question: Anderson, anglo-chinese or national?

2006-02-06T21:22:00.000-08:00

It's coming. I feel it coming.

Well duh cos it's already announced NATIONWIDE.

I can't pretend it's just a rumour because it's not.

I'm losing my sanity.

2006-02-03T23:07:00.000-08:00

I'm sick. My throat is ultra sore. My head feels hot. I feel terrible.

I don't want to miss cell. Sighs.

I can't face life. Not today. And maybe next week too.

Sighs.

2006-02-03T05:50:00.000-08:00

I turned 17 today. And old i might be, it has to be one of the best days in my life.

I woke up(feeling old) but happy since it was pioneer's open house which meant that there would be only 2 hours of lessons. So went to school and met vanessa on the bus!My kuku gave me a card, a banana with a crown on top. Well, i'll leave it to ur imagination what she meant. BUT IT WAS SWEET AND CUTE :)

Constance gave me a card :) And it has a crown on it too! Hahahahah, i'm queen :) Then we went for the chinese zu bo competition. I FLUNKED THE WHOLE THING LA. But never mind, shan't complain. Cos i'm not great in chinese to begin with. It's already an achievement to come this far. Yeaps, so i met my CHOCOLATE TOPPED WAFFLE (Riah) and we went round the school together. I TOTALLY MISS HER LA. Sorry honey for leaving halfway. I still feel very bad about it :(

Oh yah, I LOVE SOYMILK. They surprised me. At first, i only thought daniel, aaron and andris were coming. When i stepped out of the hall, ALMOST ALL WERE THERE. Including Joann! I was so touched and shocked! Standing in front of me were sheena, shermaine, nicholas, jiani, daniel, andris, aaron, joann and yes. Cherie, she's such a sweetie. She was feeling unwell and all yet she went through all to celebrate my birthday and give me such a pleasant surprise! I feel so blessed. THANK YOU ALL.

Priscilla, jieying and hui hui were there too. Brought them around, soon, amisha and huda came with them WITH A CAKE. Wow, I was surprised too. I thought amisha was coming to PJC but i didn't know i had a cake. I love u guys. U all never fail to amaze with during birthdays and i would also never forget the crumble huda baked last year! Thank you all :)

Hahaha, also wanna thank my dearest senior wen ling and oneida :) And all those who wished me! Which are (it's pretty long..)
kenneth, kenneth, kenneth(HAHAHA I'M NOT JOKING), siew ling, daniel, jeremy, candy, andris, priscilla, steffi, riah, joe, jishen, candice, DADDY, eliza(happy birthday to u too!), lingfang, kevin, ruiching, denisec, jiale and andre. Hahahah thank you all. U JUST MADE MY DAY. Now, the O level results suddenly don't seem to depressing.

Of course, i wanna thank my family too! AND THE LORD. For blessing me with so much all these 17 years. Okie, i better end my thank you speech. For those whom i have missed, u know abt my short term memory but i sincerely thank you too! Love u all and cheers!

2006-01-28T06:36:00.000-08:00

Have u ever had this feeling of being lost to the world? I just did.

I was walking around, doing mainly so many things but it feels as if i've done nothing. And suddenly, this feeling of being detached from this world and everyone starts sinking in. Like -boom-, hey, i DON'T KNOW anybody. Who am i and what on earth am i doing here? No, it isn't identity crisis. It's the, i-don't-know-this-world kinda thing.

People say i know many people, and i don't think it's true. Thing is, it might be acquaintances with others, but i don't know many people. What they think or do, and most of the people i know i hardly talk to. Maybe the 'me' u all see isn't me. The one who's always laughing and churning out lame jokes constantly. But then again, i don't know me. Hold on, i'm in a totally confused state suddenly. Why am i doing what i'm doing? Suddenly, all these directions which i have planned out seems blurred. Or maybe, i don't want to follow it, yet i'm unsure of where i want to go to. Oh man, i'm terribly messed up.

The impending release of the O levels results are seriously scaring me. I get some sort of panic attack whenever i think about it. Sometimes, i just wanna let go and not care. But it's hard to, seriously. Many would say there's nothing i can really do right now and all, but i can't help but feel afraid. For those who already know what to expect, it'll probably be easier for them. But thing is, i don't. I don't know what to expect and i can't take any shock. This is driving me crazy.

I think i better stop with all these endless ramblings. It's not a good thing to spread insanity to others during the Chinese New Year season. Okie, so take care people and CIAOS~

2006-01-25T05:25:00.000-08:00

Countdown to the lunar new year. Only 3 more days left. And i haven't really prepared much. As in the clothes to wear. Guess i have to do some last min shopping on friday with nicole.

Was alighting at the bus stop near my home today when this group of ah bengs from the school near my house, ( won't say which, but it starts with a r and ends with a t) started calling 'GIRL. oei girl!' I knew it was me somehow, cos there was only this sec 1 nanyang girl's girl there and when she turned back, they shouted 'NOT YOU LA'. Thinking that i dropped something, i turned back, only to be greeted by laughter and wolf whistles.

Kids these days. hahaha, wonder why i called them kids? Cos they're still in secondary school and I'VE GRADUATED :) So that means even if i'm not older than them, i'm more senior! Hahaha, weird stuff i take pride in huh?

JC life is really hectic. I feel so tired every morning and i really dread waking up. I don't know why, and even in secondary school, i never felt this way. I need alot of strength to carry on. And i need a break. So the CNY hols comes in at just the right time :)

Haha, have loads of tutorials to do. Take care peeps and God bless :)

2006-01-20T06:29:00.000-08:00

Okie, i better blog. I can't call someone a lazy pig for not blogging and me myself not blog right? Well, i've just realized that the kuku fever has spread. Not only me, but now, many more people are starting to use that word. I guess it's a pretty useful word when u can't think of any suitable adjective. And to some people who don't know what kuku is, the conversation i had with the kuku king brendon would be a classic example of kuku-ness.

I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW BIAS THE REFEREE WAS!!! says:YO WASSUP MAN (this is brendon)

`cheryl numb me. let me feel pain no more. says:HAHAHA DA SKY

I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW BIAS THE REFEREE WAS!!! says:wrong, the ceiling

cheryl numb me. let me feel pain no more. says:NO, the sky. what's above the ceiling?

I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW BIAS THE REFEREE WAS!!! says: the roof

`cheryl numb me. let me feel pain no more. says:above the roof?

I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW BIAS THE REFEREE WAS!!! says:the tiles

`cheryl numb me. let me feel pain no more. says:above them?

I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW BIAS THE REFEREE WAS!!! says:the water left over after the rain

`cheryl numb me. let me feel pain no more. says:and above that? ( see how long can u last)

I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW BIAS THE REFEREE WAS!!! says:the little water vapours

And it goes on and on and on.I think it went to the insects the the birds. It's now currently at the bigger big birds. Haha, go figure. Well, now for those who didn't know what's kuku, NOW u do. Lol. Just refer to brendon. U can never go wrong -winks-

PS. I do admit i have to small part to play as well. Lol.

2006-01-17T06:03:00.000-08:00

I realize i have too many fears and phobias. Bleahs, i'm a scaredy cat. But what to do, i really find them scary. I guess i'll try list then down in this post today, if there's enough space to write them all down that is. Haha.

1) I'm afraid of lizards
2) I'm afraid of scary movies
3) I'm afraid of anything which crawls and bites
4) I'm afraid of being the odd one out
5) i'm afraid of being a social outcast
6) i'm afraid of losing all the people around me
7)I'm afraid of death
8) I'm afraid of getting into trouble
9) I'm afraid of roller coasters
10) I'm afraid of pain
11) I'm afraid of being looked down by others
12) I'm afraid of being the worst
13) I'm afraid of being embarassed in public
14) I'm afraid of being eternally seperated from God

Okie, that's all i can think of at the moment. It's still quite alot already. Maybe i have many un-discovered fears. Oh well, daniel crashed my JC and had quite alot of fun huh? YAYEE. Pjc is proclaimed more fun than SP. Hahahaha, and he said it's the people that makes a difference. So in other words, he meant that I ROCKED :) Haha no la, SP was probably fun too. I have to say this, or else i get double jinxed by kevin or something.

Oh, it's getting late now. I better go. Bleahs, the new timetable would commence from tomorrow. It is really hectic. Which means i need double dosage of sleep. LOL. Take care and niteys everyone :)

2006-01-16T04:54:00.001-08:00

Hello people =)

Haha, first day of school for the week today and i may be feeling weird, but i liked bio today! Suddenly, the cells all seem so interesting and they don't seem like parts too small for me to be bothered about. Hahaha, but i guess i won't torture u all by boring u with my sudden fascination with biology.

God really provides. Just the other day the maths lecturer told us we all need to get a graphic calculator and the models all seemed quite expensive. I was contemplating buying it cos i guess i'll probably stay in PJC and i'll probably take maths again. I was thinking of getting the TI 83 plus model and guess what? Daryl has the exact same model which i wanna buy. Wow. All the money i have saved.

Oh well, we would be getting our timetables tomorrow. I guess then would the real JC life start kicking in. Hahahaha, it'll probably be pretty tiring and hectic. My new quote, reality falls like an elephant from the sky. Hah. I think my hunny knows what i'm saying. Maybe to other's i might be muttering gibberish. LOL.

Haha, i think i have to fly.Just heard some news. Okie, take great care and BYE :)

2006-01-14T05:17:00.000-08:00

Hey people, back to blog!

Whoa, terribly sick today. Sneezing my brains out, and i've just realized something. When i'm sick, i'm realli easily irritable. Really, i think i've been snapping way too much today. Have to change i guess.

Got new spectacles today. Sighs sighs sighs. I look really kuku. Yes, i'm admitting this time i REALLY DO. So ugly na. Look so hideous and nerd. But what to do? I really can't see anything the lecturer is presenting at the lecture theatre. But wearing the glasses really makes me feel giddy. And i look terrible. Oh no, i think wearing glasses would make me develop inferiority complex. Ahhhhhhhhhh.

Went back to band today. Contemplating on whether to play for the Istana performance. Well, my playing really was terrible. Seriously. I guess i was pretty sick and couldn't really concentrate too. Oh well, i dunno what to do. Another dilemma.

I think i have to start studying already. I can't play too much for 1st 3 month thing. Or else, i'm gonna be in really big big big trouble. That said, i better go. Take care people and God bless :)

2006-01-12T01:43:00.000-08:00

The rain still hasn't stopped. Hahaha, and it's so cold in school. Especially in the lecture halls.

We got posted to our different classes today. Good thing i'm not alone, at least edwin is in the same class. He's really good in bio, yayee, so i have a new bio teacher. It was so cool la, during bio lecture, he actually brought in a recorder and recorded the whole lecture. Bio is really hard, and alot to study and memorise. Concepts can be complicating, or maybe it's just because i'm not good enough for it. But one thing for sure, i'll never see cell in the same way again. Wow. God's creation can be really marvellous. He takes care of the tiny details and it's amazing to see how things work so systematically.

Maths lecture today was really fun. We were studying functions today, though it was mainly a recap of secondary school work. Hahaha, so the lecturer was showing us how to use a graphic calculator. And one question required him to find out the minimum point, and when he keyed in enter for the answer. The word : GUESS flashed on the calculator and everyone in the lecture hall started laughing. Which was really funny.Cos this is the first time i came across a calculator to ask us to guess the answer. Hahahaha.

Planned for the OG outing for next saturday. Ooo. I can't wait for that. And for cell too. Which reminds me, i better start on the purpose driven life.

Okie, i better go. Take care and God bless! CIAOS

2006-01-10T01:29:00.000-08:00

It's a public holiday today and holidays do really remind me of the december hols. Where i could stone and bum around without a care. So those days are over. And i think it'll be a long long time before they come again.

Orientation officially ended yesterday. Haha, i miss OG 4. But never mind, we'll have some OG outing soon. Yayee. I can't wait. Campfire was really fun yesterday, whoa, went totally high. But i guess we are supposed to be high, especially on the last night of orientation.

O level results would be out on 15th feb or that's what i heard. It's gonna be scary, i don't know. I mean, the papers all seemed okie, but everytime something seems okie, it always turns out not. And i can't bear to face that kinda situation again. Really.

The weather seems so nice and cool. And really great to sleep in. Yet i have to go to school. Aww bummer. With the weather so cold, i can even sleep without the fan on. Imagine how much electricity bills we could save if it were like this everyday. But then again, i don't like the rain much. Thunder and lightning aren't my thing. And it's troublesome to carry an umbrella every where i go.

Haha, i'm gonna stop my endless ramblings and not gonna bore u all further. So take care and God bless! Adieu :)

2006-01-06T21:36:00.000-08:00

Wow, i feel really tired. Never knew that orientation could be that tiring. I never felt that tired during unity cca leader camps but today, i was like a zombie, stoning my way through everything.

Woke up at 4 to go to the airport to send granduncle and aunt off. Hahaha, i was smart enough to bring patricia(my pig) and my blanket with me to the car and i slept comfortably the whole way through. Then came back at 7 to sleep all the way till 12, only to be woken up by nicole to watch the school vcd.

I miss 47 so much. Hahahaha, watching the vcd really brings back alot of fond memories and how we have mugged so much for the O levels. AND BAND TOO. Sorry i couldn't come back yesterday, my orientation ended too late. I wish i could too.

College curriculum is really scary. Everytime there's some lecture or talk, the teachers never fail to scare us with the heavy curriculum and ginormous amount of brainwork we need. Guess i'll have to work like really really hard to get into the course i want to in uni. That's gonna be tiring.

Hahaha, i love my OG. And the gua gua gua people. Hahahaha, for those who don't know, there's the ah gua, bak gua, tau gua, mu gua, xi gua and ku gua. Ahhhh.. this is so kuku man. But oh well, kuku can be fun toos :)

I'm so pro, stoning in front of the computer can still write so much -grins-

2006-01-05T06:47:00.000-08:00

Hey people, it's been a REALLY LONG time since i've blogged. Hahaha, not really but still yeaps, i haven't been blogging for awhile.

Have been busy in PJC with the orientation camps and all. Come back home really tired everyday but it has been alot of fun and i made many new friends!

Hahaha, would blog more about the orientation when it's over. Right now, i think i need rest and sleep. ALOT of it.

So till the next post, take care and God bless. Adieu :)

2005-12-31T07:29:00.000-08:00

Teehee. This is the last post before the new year.

Hmmm, it has been a great year and though i did complain about the O levels and all, it was definitely a year which impacted me alot. And i would like to end the new year by thanking some people.

First of all, i have to thank God. He has always been with me all this time, during all my ups and down. Sometimes, i feel that i have really let Him down, only going to him whenever i'm upset or need His comfort or help. I hope i would really change in the new year.

Next, i wanna thank my parents. Whom i had disagreements, arguments and conflicts with. But i have to thank them all the same, for being there when i needed them.

Thirdly, i wanna thank Huda, Amisha, Miaw Hui, Priscilla and Candy. Thanks for being there when i needed u guys. I'm really going to miss u all so much. I'm gonna miss all the fun and laughter. Just everything and every bit of you all. Hope to really see u all soon!!!!

Hahaha, next i wanna thank all my section mates. U all really rock my world. Hahaha, i will come back to band. I will miss u all. LOADS.

Hahaha, last but not least, i wanna thank SOYMILK. U guys really rock and i totally love u all. Hahaha, i'll always be waiting for the next cell group and the Chiangmai trip is something which i'll never forget!

Okie, so that was a whole lot of thank yous. And of course, for those whom i've missed, i have never forgotten u all. U all make my life, remember??

So a happy new year to everyone. CHEERS :)

2005-12-27T06:27:00.000-08:00

Okie, christmas is over. And i'm starting to miss the carols and parties. But every good thing's gotta end. So reality check, school's starting and i better get back to... mugging. But YAYEE, i still have orientation camp to look forward to. But sighs again, i'm probably going to PJC alone. I shall have to be positive and hopefully, 3 months would zoom past quickly.

Had the soy milkians here yesterday and it was a whole lot of fun. Hahahahahah, and a whole lot of food left. Heh. Just as well, it's time for me to stop eating so much since i have no more excuse to gorge myself with christmas treats. And it's pretty funny eating fruit salad for breakfast, lunch and dinner.

Finally had a well deserved rest today. Was so tired when my brother woke me up at nine this morning and i went to clean to rooftop. Then went back to sleep again then woke up to eat. And went back to sleep again. Hahahha, sleeping marathon. Sooner or later, my bed and i are gonna be siamese twins.

Hahahaha, my endless ramblings now has to end. Something's puzzling me.... oh well, maybe i'll get to that in my next post. In the meantime, take care and God bless. Adieu :)

2005-12-25T07:11:00.000-08:00

The yuletide season is here again!

It's time to be merry and jolly. But at the same time, we must also remember the important reason why we celebrate christmas. Not for santa, not for presents and definitely not for turkeys.

It's for Jesus. Our saviour :)

I definitely love christmas, it's a time where many people meet together and sing carols, exchange gifts and also just get to know each other better. And i've got to know many new people, including cousins whom i've never talked to and of course, new friends!

Not forgetting the presents. And the cooking which i had to do.

But then again, Christmas is all about giving isn't it?

So, HOHOHO, MERRY CHRISTMAS.

I hear sleigh bells ringing.

2005-12-22T04:48:00.000-08:00

Bleahs, since my eggcup told me to update. I guess i will. Whahahaha.

Went out with wenling today to watch CHRONICLES OF NARNIA. It was really good, they really captured the plot well, computer effects were good, sound system was alright, though a little too loud. And I LOVE THE BEAVERS, and peter too of course. The former were cute-sy cute, peter was hot cute. Hahahahaha.

Then, went to JE to support SHEENA AND SHERMAINE. U guys rocked though i hard a hard time looking at them cos, i'm, a little vertically challenged. And the rain was beating on my face. Thank God for umbrellas =)

I got my 2nd chrismas present! A $30 borders voucher. Hahaha. My first??? A bear from my brother. Thing is, i totally know the reason why he bought it. HAH.

Okie, i've updated already andris. Haha, that silly girl, always asking random questions.

Till then, take care and God bless peeps :)